Claudia Tihan , sensational baseball player catching manys attention. she began her school's first baseball team. plays all positions. preferably stays in center field.
alex verdugo , rookie on fire for the los angeles dodgers. plays center field.
Claudia Today is the homerun derby. I'm really excited. Alex was playing in Anaheim vs the angels. I haven't seen him. We've texted but a simple talk even though were in the same city. He hasn't come over nor tried to neither have i. You see I've been nervous af about the homerun derby. I'm scared AFFFF. Next week is also the dodger diamond gala. Its alot to deal with tbh. Vic is with bazzi. He's bringing him later. "Hey sue" i say and hug her. "Hey" she says. "Is he here" i ask. "No , i haven't seen him" she says. "Oh okay. Well i gotta go" i say. "Okay see you around" she says and i go to the club house.
I check my phone and he hasn't replied. Wtf? I go to bp and do what we're told. "Okay go get ready you'll be going first" we get told. I finish getting dressed and i bump into sue before i walk out to the dugout. "Is he here?" i ask. "No he isn't. Was he suppose to be here?" She asks. "Yeah he said he was coming" i say. "He's most likely in parking" she says. I don't get to say anything because I'm being taken to do press. I get to my section and theres already people there. "Good afternoon" i say and sit down. "Good afternoon" they say. I get a few intro questions first.
"A few days ago you went on a twitter rant , expressing yourself about lgbt. You recieved a bunch of backlash both negative and positive. What do you have to say now?" She asks. So my mom is my manager right , we had a serious talk and she said i need to chill because this is affecting or will affect any brands who would want to work with me. "Yes , i said everything i had to say in those tweets. Thats all i have to say about that matter" i say trying not to sound rude. "Do you think there's discrimination against those who identify as lgbt within the mlb?" Another asks. Yes. "No more questions regarding lgbt" my publicist says. Yes i have one of those.
Questions get asked then i finish and go to 3 more interviews. I finish and go to the batting cages. After i go to the field and see my family. "Good luck" they all say. "Thank you" i say. I look around and alex isn't here. I then get taken to the dugout. "You will be announced with the male from your team" he says. Soon the announcements start. "Ready?" Cody asks and i chuckle. He's also in the derby. "Yup" i say. "Representing your Los Angeles Dodgers. #27 Claudia Tihan and #35 Cody Bellinger" p.a says. I exit the dugout first then he does. We line up and do the national anthem then we go first. I'm in the 3rd heat?
It all goes so fast its now my turn. "Los Angeles Dodgers Claudia Tihan" the p.a says. I have 4 min. I got this. I got this. I get ready and get the signal. Honestly i feel like everything was so fast. Yet i don't and do remember everything. I finish and go back. "Claudia 29 home runs" i get told. Fuck. "Moving on to the second round. From the Los Angeles dodgers Claudia Tihan with 29 home runs" i hear. Second round comes and i just black out. Just concentrating on the team. My whole demeanor drastically changes. All i focus on is the game. Thats it. "42 home runs Claudia" i hear. Oh wow. "Moving on to the last round Claudia Tihan with 42 home runs" p.a says and fans cheer.
Final round we're going head to head. All or nothing. Before getting on the plate i let out a deep breath. "Come on Clau you got this" i hear cody say. Focus. Focus. Focus. I step on the plate and grip onto the bat. We get the signal and time starts and i honestly don't remember. Soon the timer goes off and fans cheer. "Ximena Flores with 43 home runs" p.a says. Fuck i lost ...? "Claudia Tihan with 45 home runs" p.a says and fans cheer. "Great game" she says. "Great game" i say and shake her hand i get an award and stuff then its time for the guys. "Damn i feel so fucking relieved now" i tell cody. "I can tell. You truly demolished it" he says. "Thank bopper you'll do great" i say. "Thank you clau" he says.
"Your 2020 home run derby winners with 116 homers in total , Claudia Tihan" p.a says and fans cheer. "With 108 homers in total , Cody Bellinger" p.a says. Yup we both won. We get pictures taken and get celebrated. We do interviews and what not then i go into the club house and get ready. I meet up with my family then we go out to eat. After dinner i go home with bazzi and shower again then go to sleep.
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"Hello?" I say answering my phone. "Heyy what are you doing?" Alex asks. "Nothing" i say. "Can you come over? We gotta talk bout something" he says. "Okay? Right now?" I ask. "Yeah" he says. "Alright see you soon" i say. To talk? Why? I get up and put my shoes on then put bazzi in his gate then i grab my bag and stuff then go out to my car. I go through starbucks drive thru then go to Alex's. The whole time i ask the same question. Talk about what?? In my gut i have this feeling of what this conversation may be about. But i wish it isnt.
"Sup" i say as i give him his drink and he lets me in. "Sup" he says he's more quiet than usual , he gives me a tight hug. I follow him to the living room and i sit down. It's quiet af and i don't like it. "You did great yesterday" he says. So he was there he went to my parents for a bit. He didn't talk to me at all though. "Thanks" i say and it stays quiet again. Yup this is what i was wishing wouldn't happen. I'm mentaly prepared for whats about to go down. "So what'd you wanna talk about?" I ask. He opens his mouth to say something but quickly closes it. "I don't even know where to start" he says. "I love you i do" he says. Yup. Claudia he's breaking up with you.
A nearly 1 year relationship is ending. I have trouble passing the gulp of drink i just took. Its like it's stuck with the knott on my throat. "I just. Right i feel like were both on two very different roads. You have so much to learn , your 18 you have so much to live. You have so much to experience , i don't want to be the one to stop you Claudia" he says. "Your a superstar , a player on the rise. You have so much coming for you. You need your focus on the game. I , i need to focus on mine" he says. "And as hard as this is for me to say , it breaks my heart truly. I think right now isn't for us. Maybe and i hope it does ,one day we will be great for eachother again. Just right now isn't" he says. Cold face claudia. No crying.
"Has this been an on going thought or you just woke up and thought of this?" I ask. "Its been hitting me these past few days" he says. "Thats why you became distant?" I ask and he nods. He burries his face in his hands and i get up. Me being the mature 18 year old i start walking to the door. "Your leaving?" He asks following behind. "Yeah , there's no need for me to be here" i say. "We can't be friends? I still need you around" he says. WTF. "No... , if we're broken up then thats that. We don't need to be friends. I'll be cordial thats it" i say. I place his key on the key hanger and quickly hug him. "You'll be fine. You don't and won't need me" i say as i pull away and open the door getting out.
I hold everything in until i get home. It's again the worst cries. The knot being released. Like the cries when you start hyperventilating. Yup thats me right now. I really really loved this guy. I get bazzi and go to my room and continue crying.
