Longing for Decades

Tears of him

Singto:

I am blank. Totally. The pain I felt earlier when I thought about that rumor about my love at the Washroom of the bar......can't even explain what I felt. Hurting so much even only birthing. Yes I felt that even when without knowing myself I went to the VIP area. For the time being maybe I am having some of my own strength but when I saw P'krist.......I am out of my control. I can't hold my tears. I broke down in front of him. That was the time when I felt that even 0.0001% of the rumor is true then what's going to happened to me. I felt like even simply breathing in front of my P' is burden him or harm him. No matter what I don't want to be one of the cause of his sadness. But what happened next was make me blank. I can't think anything. Not bad not good not imagination nothing. I just take the steps what my P show while I only looked at the hand which grabbed me so hard and dragging me away. 

I don't know where I am. But I am with my P. He make me sit and asking me. I just nodded or shook head.

I forget myself in his eyes. Please god don't let me know if all this is a dream. Let me stay in this dream forever......

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Krist:

It was a call from my uncle ( the lawyer one). He told me about the hospital official conditions. Yes that's right. Not about Nana but other hospital. Didn't get it. Let me explain...

It is that hospital where I was joined for my treatment years ago. It was where I found purpose to live. It was where I found my courage to fight back. And it was where I had a friend and also lost him. Before that hospital was a pronounced famous as well as the management of it was so strong. Years after years the greedy people make that hospital hollow inside. 

Not to disclosed the real purpose....... I secretly investigate on that. Uncle is helping so he called me earlier. Due to the atmosphere of the room was very high and my friends are shouting with joy....I excused to attained the call. 

What I saw that a messy person standing looking at me and his eyes full of sadness without energy.  He is singto the new guy. I mean it's the first day of his university and he is now in this condition. It must be something serious thinking that when I cut the call, he looked at me and cry. 

Generally I don't care about new comers or they have any problems if they pleaded for help. Here I couldn't help myself. Grabbed his hand and dragged him to my room. Yes I have an extra room in this section. It's for my meetings with my employees or with my uncles. It's been only 7hours approximately.... The last I saw and left him because of the news Bright told me that time he had tears in his eyes and now again when I saw he is crying.

I never even allowed my friends to came to this room but I myself dragged him to this room which only for my work. I never used this room for any personal reason. I broke my own principles for him.

Earlier I cried when he played my notes when I promised not to cry again.

I gave him the notes to play when I never given anyone to attempt to play that one.

I never dragged anyone like him.

Even I myself feeling helpless seeing him cry which I never felt with Mira also when she cried in front of me.

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After entering into the room Krist said

" sit here" K

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" drink" k ( he gave him a glass of water from the table.)

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" Are you OK now" ? K ( singto drank the water and Krist take back the glass from his hand)

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" you know I am your Senior and you are my responsibility. " k

Nodded ......singto

" you can tell me anything... Any kind of problems. I'll try my best to solve. So if you ready and feel free then told me OK... " k

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" OK " k

Nodded..... singto

They starred each other for some moment. Krist is feeling something but couldn't pin point it. Somehow he collect himself and said " I am here if you need....." . he got up and go to the washroom. He looked at the big mirror and ....who are you and why your eyes bringing the past to me. Its too dangerous to be involved with you thinking that he splash some water to his face. He is also tipsy now. Already had few drinks. He drank to forget that teary eyes earlier and now fate became so cruel to made him face same kind of situation. He can't even explain clearly himself for now so forget about others.

" did I take any impulsive decisions. Hopefully I can manage him. " talking with the reflection of himself. 

Krist opened the door of washroom and saw that singto sit and starred blankly to the wall. Thankfully singto doesn't go through the stuffs of Krist or else he could know his secret. Krist is now debating himself his he could move singto from the room and he wants to make sure this action should be kept in dark. No one should know about it.

"Ummm singto.... You...I... You mean...I mean to say.." K

" what should I do now" S

" hummm?????" K asking him...with questioning eyes to singto.

" what should I do now P. " S

" I didn't get it"k

" give me some advice " S

" missing home?" K

.."no"s

" face problems mean like bully,money problems, partner problem " ???????? Krist ask with a worry face.

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