Love?

I won't hurt him again

Charlotte's POV

When I woke up Kyle was next to me asleep in the uncomfortable hospital chair. His chest rose up and down in a slow even pattern. While he slept it gave me time to think about what's going to happen with us. I know he will leave me eventually so I have to end it with him before I get hurt again or I hurt him. I have already hurt him so much, he's watched me go through dark days and I've see the pain in his eyes when he looks at me. I can't let him help me anymore; I pressed the button beside me to call the nurse. 

The nurse came in to the room and as she began to speak I put my fingers to my lips and pointed at the sleeping Kyle next, she understood and came up to my bedside. 'I want to leave before he wakes' she looked hesitant. 

'I can't let you go without a parent or guardian' 

'My family is dead, I have no one just let me go' I told her in a firm voice. She got up and left the room. A few moments later she returned, she started to unplug all the machines around me the sound of my heart beat shut off and then she pulled out my IV. The needle came out and it started to bleed so she placed a cotton ball and tape over it to stop the bleeding. After checking all my bandages she helped me get up and led me to the bathroom to change 

'I don't have anything to wear' she looked in my room and picked up Kyle's bag. Opening it up she found a bag with my name on it. 

'I think he brought this for you' handing me the bag I closed the bathroom door. When I opened the bag I found a pair of grey track pants and a black hoodie. They both smelt like him; like a vanilla mixed with cocoa. It was smelt beautiful, after putting on the clothes I left the bathroom. Sneaking passed Kyle I stopped at the door, he started to stir. When he settled I left, I didn't leave him a note or anything I had to get out of there before he could find me again. The Nurse gave me a sympathetic smile as she handed me my belongings in a plastic bag. 

The school wasn't far from the hospital so I would just walk there to get my car. The walk there wasn't too bad it was just slightly painfully but the pain meds seemed to be working. Reaching the high school I got into my car and drove home. Was it even my home anymore? My Father was dead, he owned the house. I had to go back anyways to get some things, I just hope they were still there. 

Reaching my house I was greeted by a horrific site. Everything was ashes, the house was gone, everything was gone, all my memories, my childhood erased. I pulled over and got out of my car. I walked over the remains of the house, nothing had been saved. I saw a very melted TV in the corner, what was once a kitchen now walls of ash but the one thing that caught my eyes was a box sitting where the back yard was. The box was only slightly burnt so I walked up to it and opened it. Inside were things that I treasure more than life itself, My music journal, a few of Jordy's hoodies, the poetry book my father got me and a photo frame. I picked up the photo frame, I looked at the picture tears running down my cheeks. It was of me and Jordy eating ice cream underneath the big tree. I remember this day as if it was yesterday.

Flash Back

Jordy and I were sitting under the tree, I was crying my eyes out as I told him about the bullies at school. He sat there and listened to me ramble for hours, to cheer me up he told me to get in his car. We drove to the ice cream shop and got our favourites. Mine was vanilla and his Chocolate. We pulled back up to the big tree and he helped me on to the bonnet of his car. We just sat in silence for a while as we enjoyed the ice cream, that's when Jordy wiped a chocolate cover finger over my cheek. I stared at him in horror and then we both started laughing our heads off. I hadn't even see him take the photo at the time.

Flashback ends

The tears were streaming down my face. I picked up the box and put it in the back of my car. I didn't have any where to stay so I went to the safest place I could call home; the big tree. I parked my car up on the hill, I always kept a blanket in my car because I had slept in it before.

Father had often scared me and I would bring my car here and sleep. Getting out of my Car I sat on the bonnet and watched the sun go down 'Good night Jordy'. Jordy was the sunshine in my life it only seemed right to say goodnight. I got off the bonnet of my car and opened the back door. Getting in I was small enough to lie across the back seat without too much discomfort. As I got comfortable my thoughts returned to Kyle. I had left him at the hospital, let him think I would let him help me and had just run away. I groaned, I'm such a bad person 'who does that' I ask myself. The only feeling in my stomach was guilt, I went to sleep knowing I had ruined another person; first Mother, then Father, Jordy and now Kyle.

Kyle's POV

I woke up from my slumber to find Charlotte's bed empty. Looking at my watch I saw that it was 5 in the evening, 'shit' I cursed. I looked around her room, none of the machines were in here anymore, the bed had been made and anything that was Charlotte's was now gone. I looked down to see my bag open, when I searched it I found the clothes I had brought for Charlotte were gone this could only mean one thing; she's already left. Why do I always screw up, all I had to do was wait for her to wake and take her back to my place and care for her and I couldn't even do that. I ran my hands through my hair. 

'Fuck, fuck where is she' I groaned. Picking up my bag I left her room and went to the nurses station 'uh hi. I'm looking for my friend Charlotte Scott, she was supposed to be released today and I was meant to pick her up' the nurse looked at me then the computer. 

'I'm sorry Sir she checked out at 2:00pm. She said something about not waking you and that she wanted to leave before you woke up' I got angry. 

'How could you let her go without an adult, she could be anywhere by now' I sigh in frustration as I left the hospital. Where could she be?! It was dark outside so I got in my car and began to think of places she may have gone. The school because her car would be there or her house because that's where her stuff is and I couldn't think of many other places. She never mentioned anywhere else she likes to go when we were talking so I started at the school. Driving to the school Charlotte was all I could think about, where was she, why did she leave, I thought she liked me too. 

My mind went to the kisses we shared, in those moments I felt like I could breathe again. The way our lips connected perfectly. It was like we were made for each other but if this was in fact true why did she run from me? I eventually pulled up to school, the parking lot was empty so now I knew she had either been here or her car was stolen but I'm guessing the first one as no one is stupid enough to steal a shitty car from a high school parking lot. Going with my gut I drove to her house when I arrived I had to double check this was the right street. I looked at where he house was meant to be and all that was there was a broken home turned into ash by flame. My thoughts ran wild as I ran up to the wreck, was Charlotte inside when it happened? Is she okay? My mind filling with worry but as I stepped on what's left of the house it was cold, meaning this fire was not today so Charlotte couldn't of been here when it happened. My mind filled with relief but one big question was still there; where is Charlotte? 

I started driving around town looking for her but I had no luck, searched every street, every alley and every park but I couldn't find her. It was Wednesday so she should be at school tomorrow I'll just have to hope she comes. With that hopeful thought in my mind I returned home and collapsed onto my bed. It had been 5 days since I had gotten a decent sleep I just hope tonight I can get some sleep, I don't know how I'll cope if Charlotte doesn't come if I'm exhausted.