Love?

Maybe not totally alone

Kyles POV

Almost a week has gone by since Charlotte stopped talking to me. I didn't want to force her to talk to me because I know this would just complicate the matter further. I just wish she would talk to me because the few times I have seen her she looks as if she's slowly fading from the world; day by day. It takes all my strength not to run up to her and give her the world. To protect her from everyone and anything that gets near her. 

Since she wasn't in my class anymore, the only time I saw her was in the corridors and she always had her hood up. For a brief moment the other day she lifted her eyes and they met mine. She looked dead her eyes grey like the clouds her face expressionless. It was almost like the girl I had been talking to a week ago was all a dream. There was no sign of the Charlotte that loved music, loved to draw or the Charlotte that just wanted people to see her. This wasn't the Charlotte I had met at the beginning of term, she had changed and it was all my fault.

I was walking down the corridor towards the back of school when I saw a someone in the corner by the door. Coming closer I noticed that it was Charlotte, being closer I could also hear her crying. My heart shattered at the sound of her tears, I bent down beside her 'Charlotte? It's me Mr Rivers. What's wrong' she looked up at me her face full of hurt and disbelief. 

'What's wrong!' she screamed at me 'Did you really just ask me what's wrong. Here I tell you what's wrong, the one person I thought I could trust broke my heart. I was an idiot to think he actually cared for me and that he would protect me from people who tried to hurt me'. She had stopped crying and was glaring me. I know I had screwed up, I just wish she would've let me talk to her sooner. 

'Charlotte, I'm sorry for what happened the other day. I tried explaining to you that she kissed me but you wouldn't listen.' I sighed 'Charlotte I know I screwed up, I hate seeing you in this much pain. It's worse because I caused it and did nothing to fix my mistake' my eyes stayed on her. As I finished her face began to soften. 

'No Kyle you don't get to say sorry and that it be over. For the past week I have had to live with that memory, every time I see you or that slut I see it. I constantly wake from nightmares where you say things like you only pitied me and then you kiss her with passion the way you used to kiss me' she got up and tried to walk away. 

'Please Charlotte can we talk this through, I hate being the reason your upset' I longed into her eyes hoping she would at least let me talk to her. 

'Mr Rivers if you hate seeing me upset then maybe you shouldn't have caused it in the first place' and like that she walked away. I wasn't going to let her run again, I ran after her. 

'Charlotte!' I yell out to her. She doesn't even acknowledge my call and continues walking I really was getting fed up with this. As much as I know it's my fault the least she could do is listen 'CHARLOTTE!' I growled in anger. Her body froze and when she turned around her lips trembled and fear filled her eyes. 

Memories of the night her father yelled at her flew through my mind she was giving me the same look; she was afraid of me. My anger vanished, I walked up to her and she lowered her head as I stood in front of her 'Charlotte please don't be scared. You weren't listening I had to find a way for you to stop. I'm sorry I growled that was a lack of my own judgement' she stepped away from me before looking up her eyes on the brink of tears but she wasn't about to cry in front of me and i saw her put up those walls of defence, i spent so long destroying.

'Fine Kyle say what you want to say. Just don't come close to me' her voice carrying the tears she was holding in. My already shattered heart felt like it was being ripped out of my chest. 

'Thank you Charlotte. Can we talk in my office it will be more private?' I asked her. She nodded her head so I led the way to my office.

When we reached my office I opened the door for her and she went in, following her I closed the door behind me. Moving my desk chair I offered her to sit down, while I leaned on my desk 'Charlotte, I would like to begin by apologising again. I'm sorry for what happened last week. I told you everything that I was feeling, let you open up to me and then you saw Miss Harper and I kissing. I need you to know that the kiss meant nothing at all, Miss Harper was the one who engaged the kiss I was just so shocked in the moment that I didn't pull away. I'm sorry you had to witness this and hope we can move on from this because Charlotte I really do care for you. I will do anything to regain your trust' I let my gaze stay on Charlotte as she fiddled with her hands.