Love?

New start without Kyle

Charlottes POV

I woke up to the sound of birds, it was a nice way to wake up. It was definitely better than an alarm clock. Sitting up in my car my stomach began to rumble, I haven't eaten much in the last few days and my ribs were starting to show so I think I better eat something. Folding the blanket I had used neatly into the boat I changed out of Kyle's clothes and put on some shorts I had in my trunk and one of Jordy's hoodies. It was Thursday, meaning I had school but I had worked out a plan for today. I'm going to leave the clothes in a bag with a note saying "For Mr Rivers" at the office and at the same time I am going to drop out of his music class. I know it will be hard to throw away music like that but I can't be near him. Just thinking about him makes my guilt rise in my chest. Today was going to be interesting.

On my way to school I stopped by a café and grabbed myself a coffee and scone. I sat in my car when I got to school and ate my breakfast. Checking myself in the mirror I made myself presentable and used my fingers as a comb for my hair before pulling it back into a messy bun. 

Brushing the crumbs off my lap I got out of my car and headed straight for the office. I placed the bag on the desk 'This is for Mr Rivers he'll know who it is from and I would like to change my classes please' the office woman didn't seem to happy that I was bothering her at 7: 45 in the morning but I wanted to get in and out so I didn't have to see him. 

She looked back at me 'Name?' 'Charlotte Scott' my voice almost sounding like a computer. 'What did you want to change Miss Scott?' she gave me that look that said hurry up so I can go back to drinking coffee.

'I want to drop music' she clicked a few keys then handed me a new timetable 'Bye' I give her a small smile. Walking to my locker I start to regret dropping music but my mind keeps telling me it's for the best and I will get over it eventually. When I opened my locker I found a note inside, and it said this

"Dear Charlotte

I hope you're feeling better? I know hospital stays can be dull. I hope we can be friends I'm a bit of an outliner like you. If you're wondering who would leave this strange kind note in your locker, well it's me James. We met in English last week before you got called away. You have been away since then so I hope you smile when you get back whilst reading this.

See you in class

James"

I stared at the note, why would James take the time to write this? It's not like I'm going to keep it. I threw the letter in the trash. Grabbing my art folder i closed my locker. I need to find a new place to sit he knows I like the courtyard so instead I head to the football field. In the corner of the field is a big tree, it reminded me of Jordy and I's so I sat underneath it and pulled out sketching book. I flipped to a random page and those eyes stared at me. 

I ripped the page out and folded it placing it at the bottom of my folder where it would lay to be forgotten. Sketching away I hadn't noticed that someone walked up to me. 

'Hey Charlotte' looking up I saw James. I found the letter slightly creepy since he must've followed me to find my locker. 

'uh hi' without warning I felt him sit very close to me. Feeling uncomfortable I shifted away from him making a gap between us but he didn't get the message as he moved closer to me, I give him a cold glare. 

'What I'm cold and your hot' his eyes raked my body, that was the worse pick up line in history. Putting away my stuff I got up and began walking away, not long after I heard footsteps in sync with mine. 

Turning my head James was there 'Um did you want something?' I didn't mean to sound bitchy but it probably came out that way. His eyes looked off into the distance. 

'You got my letter right' I gave him a simple nod as he continued 'So I was wondering if you wanted to be friends?' he looked at me. His eyes were full of hope, this reminding me of the day I turned down Mr Rivers for the assembly performance, I hated doing this but even with my Father dead I'm still a broken wreck. 

I looked at him 'No, I don't have friends for a reason' he didn't seem shocked by my answer. We reached the school building before he could say anything else, I walked up to art. I decided to have a double art since I had a free and continued with my sketch. I was drawing a girl standing on the edge of a building, her face covered in tears but a man is behind her, trying to stop her. I feel like this image represented my life completely right now. I'm on the edge of life, unable to decide if to live or die and then there's Kyle trying to help but in the end he will be the only one hurt. For if I die he might blame himself and then if I live I will never be with him for the consequences are to great and anyone who gets close to me gets hurt. When class ended I packed away my stuff and left the art room. Putting my art folder into my locker I headed for the tree but as I look up I was greeted by those memorising hazel eyes; there in front of me was Kyle Rivers.