TMNT One shots (REQUEST)

Feeling Nothing (Leo x Self Harm! Reader)

Requested by: @Snowpearl43

You walked inside your apartment after an abusive day at school. Everyday you got bullied. Wether it was the way you looked, how you dressed, your family history, or just because they felt it was needed. You walked up to your room, ignoring the argument between your parents. They always argued why they ever got together in the first place, not caring about their daughter.

You closed your door and locked it. Tears flooded your vision until they broke like a dam. You thought life would get better after you met the turtles, but you were wrong. A month ago, you told them that you going to be in Disney World. But really, you were fighting yourself.

Every night you locked yourself in your room and argued with your head. You thought no one cared. You thought no one loved you. And worst of all, you thought your crush, Leo, wanted nothing to do with you. Sure he hung out with you, but you thought he wished you didn't.

You walked into your bathroom and locked the door. You opened your drawer and picked up the blade. You took off your sweatshirt. Your scars were revealed to the light. You took a deep breath and dug the blade into your skin.

You dug deeper than usual because you thought there was no hope to your happiness coming back. 5 slits on both arms at least an inch deep. Your blood poured and dripped onto the floor. You sobbed as you threw the blade at the sink. It clinked and bounced into the shower.

Your vision was getting blurry. Just then, you heard knocking.

"(Y/n)? Are you okay?" It was Leo.

Shit, you thought.

"Y-Yeah. I'm.........good." You answered, falling to the floor.

Leo heard the thump, "(y/n)?!?" 

He tried to open the door. You were surrounded by your blood and you felt yourself pass out.

~couple hours later~

You woke up in a bed. But it wasn't yours. You groaned and looked around. You then gasped, realizing you were in Leo's room. You looked at your arms and saw that they were wrapped up.

The door knob started twisting and you backed up in the corner. Leo walked in and shut the door.

"(Y/n)?" He softly asked.

He slowly moved your hands away from your face, "Are you okay?"

"C-can I go home?" You asked.

"You won't be going back to that hellhole. The guys already got your stuff." Leo answered, "I thought you said you were going to Disney World."

You stayed silent as tears rolled down your cheeks. Leo looked at you and you turned away.

He held your arms, "is this what you been doing for a month? Wishing you'd be gone from this world? Damaging yourself and believing that you're not worth anything?"

You whimpered with rivers of tears coming down your face. Leo's eyes teared up.

"(Y/n).....why?"

You sobbed, "I can't bear the life I live anymore."

"Why?" Leo whispered, trying not to breakdown.

You explained to him about what would happen at school. About how all the kids bullied you no matter what and always finding a way and reason for it. You told him how your parents would argue every night and not pay any attention to you. And how they would sometimes say that they wish they never had you. And that you thought Leo and his brothers wanted nothing to do with you. 

Leo couldn't believe what he was hearing. His heart was breaking piece by piece from every heartbreaking story she told. Tears rolled down his face.

"(Y/n)....you mean the world to me. When I broke the door down and saw you on the floor, I froze and didn't know what to do. I held you and screamed and cried. I couldn't get you to the lair because I was scared that you would lose even more blood. Donnie came and wrapped you up and told me you were still stable." He explained, hiding his face as he sobbed, "I-I thought I lost you."

You curled up in a ball and cried. Leo held your hands.

"Promise me you won't ever do that again." He said sternly, but his tears and shaking voice made him sound scared.

"....okay." You replied.

He lifted your chin up so he could look you in the eyes, "Promise me."

You saw the fear, concern, and sadness in his eyes. That's something you never saw in Leo. He was always the fearless leader. But right now, he was filled with nothing but fear. Tears poured from your eyes.

"I promise." You replied.

He pulled you into his plastron and held you protectively. After months of feeling nothing, you now felt....wanted.