kidnapped-ED

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PM-"no finish that"

E-"um paint,preferably spray paint"

PM-"yeah in the lobby closet"

i go in

it's perfect

spray paint

every thing i need

i spray painted

on the wooden wall

lewis

i painted him

PA-"who the hell does that!"

E-"me if you have a problem either get over it or get out"

G-"ooooh"

i dtarted throwing knives at the wall

i then stopped

i calmed down

i took all the knives out

i breathed in and out

slowly

E-"i need a therapist-"

PA-"yup"

PM-"i can get you one don't worry ethan"

E-"thanks"

i then went back into my room

i went to sleep

i woke up at 3am

like i always do

i aat at the island

on my stool

with ice cream

?-"Hey i'm oceana"

E-"ethan"

O-"i know, i love your music by the way and so does my brother jacob"

E-"thanks,um can i just ask one thing?"

O-"yeah sure"

E-"um i don't want anyone to know about my emotions,like the bad ones that will ruin my reputation can you like-"

O-"yes"

E-"thank you,i'm gonna go back upstairs now"

O-"can i have some of that?"

E-"yeah"

i handed it to her and went upstairs

i looked at piper

she was awake

E-"you're awake?"

P-"yeah come hug me please?"

we were talking normally

so everyone that was awake could hear it

we just didn't know who was awake

P-"can we talk now?"

E-"yeah"

she aat up

and i aat in front of her

P-"why do you have that box"

E-"its-i- i never feel safe i've never felt safe in my life i've always been scared of- i've just never been safe my life is a game of IT but i'm never tagged,im always running i've got nothing else i can't really do anything without someone trying to kill me, and everyone who's trying to kill me doesn't even know me"

P-"whata the bottom layer?"

E-"i um-"

i aat there where with a pause

E-"drugs its drugs i'm sorry,he got me addicted to it he just-he deserved his death"

P-"he killed him self didn't he?"

E-"no he-uh he didn't, i-i couldn't take it anymore i w-was scared and fucked up i still am fucked up and i-"

i couldn't stop crying

she hugged me

P-"ita okay,its okay"

E-"i-i"

i couldn't finish

i just cried

E-"i-i hate my life, i-i hate myself i'm a useless piece of shit!"

i raised my voice a little

P-"ethan"

E-"you don't deserve to have to look after me,go find someone who isn't fucked up and a piece of shit and be happy you're not happy with me i'm a useless piece of shit you don't deserve to deal with my bullshit"

i opened the front door