Little Wing Score

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/I'm rewriting this whole thing, I didn't like it whatsoever/

Sehujo pov

(Flashback)

Sitting at the desk of our CEO, I looked down at my hands and played with my long thin fingers, the others were getting worried about me, I was 'too skinny' I weighed more than I wanted to, a whole 14kg too heavy, I also didn't participate enough in group activities, I'm the middle member, not yet the hyung line nor the maknae line, yet the leader. Doing our introduction made me feel sick, made me realise, I had people surrounding me constantly, eyes always on me. The CEO cleared his throat. "Jo, are you aware why you're here?" He asked in a soft tone. I nodded, I wouldn't speak, it'd show my nervousness, it'd show how my voice shook with every word I'd try and speak, I couldn't even rap properly without stuttering, my vocals were never strong enough for the notes I'd pull out in the background of songs, my voice would just cut, so I'd stay silent, fans had started noticing. "Jo, you need to speak, or at least try to communicate with me, even if it means writing it down, or sketching it, talk to me, I'm not gonna make fun, I'm here to help you grow." His voice broke me out of my thoughts. Looking at him, my green eyes narrowed, he looked kind enough, but behind the kindness in his eyes I saw disappointment, sadness, that one of his best idols had succumbed to something such as depression, anxiety and anorexia. I pulled my lips into a thin line, shaking my head, I didn't want to tell him anything, he probably knew more than I wanted him to, probably the fans knew more, they don't know what goes on when you walk the streets at night without people, or protection. They don't know anything about me really, they think they know the confident 'Bear' that they see on stage, they don't know the broken little boy that cries at night when his members are asleep, they don't know the boy who- A bang snaps me out of my thoughts again. Turns out I broke the bottle of water I was somehow holding, the plastic had burst and the water had drenched me and the wooden chair that I was sitting on. Standing up, I bowed to the CEO and walked out of his office, soaking wet with my traditional red hair dripping. Leaving the building, turning left instead of right to the dorms, I headed to the convenience store to pick up a pack of razors.

(Flashback end)

Waking up, I realised I'd just dreamed the day I almost got fired for disrespect and disobedience. Turning on my side I looked over the other side of the room to see my soulmate, yes I have a soul mate ever since he sent me almost flying when we were three we've been inseparable, Until I distanced myself obviously, Choi Jaehyun sleeping with his leg and arm Hanging off, his mouth wide open and loud snores escaping. Picking up my llama stuffie I threw it at him. He snorted and sat up, falling off the bed. "Wha- why do you throw that at me?" He questioned, a pout forming on his face. Rolling my eyes I took my covers off. "Your snores were annoying me, why else would I wake you up, idiot." I responded. A scream echoed throughout the hallway outside our door. "You give that back you-" was screeched after the scream. "Fuck you!" Was screamed back from the opposite end. "You threw water on me to wake me up, so I steal your phone, only fair" that's Kim Minsoo, our resident sleepy head and his roommate that he'd been friends with since the start of middle school, Soi Cheydon. There's two more, Lee Lukas and Ken Jayden, Lukas isn't Korean, he's Australian, I think, he never said. Jayden had a twin who also got into the group, but quit. Sunwoo, the Ken twins were popular within our company. Sunwoo went on to become a solo artist, we aren't salty, nope. "Why are you guys so noisy at 7 am in the morning!" Lukas said his voice getting louder towards the end, and his door opening. "Shut the fuck up, we were trying to sleep" Jayden shouted. Throwing my covers off I walked into the hallway in my fluffy white llama pyjamas. "Right you idiots, group meeting, living room now. I don't care what you are wearing, living room NOW." I shouted the end word. Running my hand through my green curls I walked at a leisurely pace as the 4 who were yelling sprinted last. "Jae, come on, I know it's not your fault. But I did call group meeting." I spoke softly leaning back into our room. He groaned stretching and falling out of bed, again. "I'm coming." He said face first down on the floor.

(Living room)

Looking around at everyone, I wondered how I still tolerated them. Minsoo was in a pair of baggy shorts and what looked like one of my Les miserables t-shirts, Cheydon was in a long button up and I couldn't tell if he has shorts or boxers on, Lukas was in some Star Trek PJs, Jayden was in some Star Wars PJs, and finally Jaehyun in fluffy blue pyjamas with a koala design on them.

"If it's 7am in the morning when one of you wake up, stay in bed, don't disturb the rest of the dorm, disturb your roommate, and that's only of they're snoring loud enough to wake you up. Deal?" I asked, yawning, my green eyes narrowing as I glanced around. They all nodded. "Good, now get back to sleep, we have rehearsals at 2pm we leave here at midday, be up by 10am, that gives you two and a half hours of sleep. Fuck off, scram, skedaddle whatever you say. But piss off" I turned around and walked out of the room yawning and rubbing my face.