stardust|jw

-4-

-Lee Sunhi-

"What?" I asked with pure shock in my voice
"Please stop caring" he repeated

Silence

One thing that was starting to get usual in between us, but I couldn't bear it, every time I would silently pray for him to say something,
'I'm sorry, I don't want you to see me like this, I don't love you anymore' or something. But he would remain silent

And so would I

"No, Jackson.. I won't stop caring, ever. Doesn't matter how harsh you are to me, or how much you push me away.. we made a promise, and I'm going to keep-"

"Bullshit! You know you're dying to leave, I'm useless, I can't even be gentle to you right now.. I'm not what you need Sunha, understand! Understand that you deserve better than a piece of trash like I am right now, geez" and even if I wanted to say something, I was speechless.

It was as if the tables had turned drastically.
When we met, almost two years ago, he was the one who would come to my rescue and comfort me when needed, but right now, that was my place to take..

But I couldn't.
I didn't know what to say, or how to react to what he was saying-I was speechless

The thing was, that he always had this fiery passion in his eyes, but today he had a different and dull fire that I knew all too well.

Self-hatred

"Stop"
I told him
"I'll bring dinner, okay?" I added, I really didn't know what else there was to say. I slammed the door behind me, and with a huff I made my way towards the kitchen
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"I don't know what else to do, Jinyoung" I sighed. He had brought a bottle of soju and spicy chicken feet with him, we were both sitting on the couch, he was being my shoulder to cry on right at this moment

"He's like a different person, I've never knew he could be this harsh and.. I don't know, he's not being himself" I added

"Sunha, I understand.. but you have to be a little patient, he'll get better" he said
"He's pride is hurting because you're the one taking care of him, and I'm not telling you to stop, because being honest, you're the only one who could bear his attitude in this moment, but try being a little more understanding, and maybe try being a little cold towards him" he suggested 

"I guess you're right.. but how being cold would help?"
"If you do, then he might reflect in his actions" he explained while serving another shot for both of us
"Ohh.." I said, taking my shot and gulping it down. I guess he made sense, and after all, I had nothing to loose

"Thanks for coming over,  oppa" I smiled softly, hugging him goodbye
"You're welcome, call me if anything happens, alright?" He said, and I nodded with a soft smile. His words were comfort in my distress, it was nice knowing he was there for me, and as I saw it, for us.

After he left, I was left to do little cleaning and catch up on some more work for my meetings with my dad tomorrow. I was very excited for this, because I knew this was a step up in my life.

Even with everything happening with Jackson right now, his pain was my pain without a doubt, but I was not letting our future drown just because of a bad moment

We were getting out of this whole
We would surely see the light soon

Because falling out of love, wasn't an option for me