We Are the Kids From Yesterday

Won't Stop Dying, Won't Stop Lying

Lately, Party had felt nothing but guilty.

The night before, Ghoul (who he was fairly sure was in fact the love of his life, his soulmate) had opened up in a way nobody thought he ever would. He trusted Party with his childhood, his trauma, his sanity and Party felt like he didn't deserve it. Because he was guilty. Only a bit before, he had kissed that beautiful girl with the red lips at the bar. She was stunning and he felt... something of a magnetic attraction to her. They were both drunk and they had made out before Kobra came and took Party. As he remembered this moment, he realized he really didn't deserve Ghoul. Sure, at the time the two of them weren't 'together,' they still technically weren't, but it sure felt like they were. They had kissed a ton and were always together, cuddling. If Ghoul found out, what would he say? What would he do? Would Party lose Ghoul if he were to find out? That was too painful to think about. So naturally, Party had turned to Kobra to vent.

"I'm just terrified..." he went on, having been talking for a while now about his fears. "I really don't wanna lose Ghoul, I can't lose him. He's my world. I just wish I could undo it. Go back, not get drunk, we'd never have gotten in that fight, I wouldn't have kissed that girl, I would have the possibility of losing him."

"You think he'd understand you were drunk?" said Kobra, his bass under one arm.

"I don't know... his bad temper is well-known and I don't know if he'd forgive me."

"I mean, you two really love each other, it seems."

"We do."

Kobra placed his bass down and folded his arms, before leaning against a wall and saying, "Shouldn't love override jealousy? It was one time, when both you and her were intoxicated, when you two had just started, plus you two aren't even an official couple."

"Yeah, but I still feel terrible," Party said, throwing his hands to his face. "He's so in love with me and I just hate thinking I might have ruined that. It feels like I'm lying to him because I'll tell him he's the only one and then I went off and kissed this girl."

"But he might be the only one for you. You want to spend the rest of your life with him, but you kissed this girl. Literally once."

"I don't want him to leave me," said Party, his voice distressed and upset, sounding like he was about to burst into tears."

"Nothing's happened yet," said Kobra. "You don't have to worry now. Wait until something happens to worry. And if something does happen, I'll be here for you. Like you're always there for me."

"Thanks kid," Party said, putting an arm around Kobra and taking him into a mock headock. "You're the best. Better brother than me, that's for sure."

"Oh my god, shut up," said Kobra, escaping from Party's headlock. "You've saved my life three times and I've never once repaid you."

"It's cuz I know I'd be lost without you," explained Party. "You listening to me and staying alive is payment enough. How about we both agree we're amazing ass brothers and end the discussion."

Kobra smiled softly before he said, "Well, besides how you're scared, how are things going with Ghoul? You guys are so sweet."

Party smiled, a light blush warming his face. "Amazing. He's the love of my life. I'm so happy, Kobra."

"I swear, if he breaks your heart, he won't know what he walked into," Kobra said, his face suddenly serious. "If he hurts you..."

"Don't worry, I don't think we'd ever hurt each other," said Party, smiling softly. "We're so happy. I think we're safe together."

"I'm just glad you're happy," continued Kobra. "After seeing you for so long, insisting you'd die alone and that you're unlovable. You just proved yourself wrong."