spirit

scars

Tw- self harm, mentions of abuse

todorokis PoV

I sit up groaning as I stretch my limbs and turn off my alarm, it's too early to be awake but school is a thing.

I push myself off my bed slowly, honestly be alive is beginning to be more exhausting by the day.

I walk over to my bathroom,closing the door I look up into the mirror straight into my own eyes, the colour seems to have faded like there's no longer life inside of them, might as well be none.
My hairs a mess, my skin is pale and sickly looking, I honestly look disgusting.

I look down tears threatening to spill, why am I such a failure.

I grab my shirt ripping it off in one swift motion, scars and bruises litter my torso, results of torturous hours of training with my father.

my arms contain uncountable self inflicted wounds on them, it's not like the pain can get any worse, right?

I undress myself fully and stumble into the shower turning on the water, the hot water soothing my aching muscles.

hopefully having to stay in the dorms will prevent me from having to go to my father for training, my body might be able to heal itself fully for once.

I hurriedly get dressed, hoping today wouldn't be training or a hot day, need to avoid short sleeves at any cost.

I walk towards my desk grabbing my stuff, turning around I bump into something.

"morning todoroki"

I scream, "oh it's just you Midoriya"

"sorry to scare you"

"It's alright" I glance at my watch, "I should really be getting to class now, are you going too?"

"certainly todoroki"

I smile, why do I keep smiling all of a sudden.

we walk out of the dorms, I don't bother grabbing breakfast I'm lot hungry anyways,in a comfortable silence we walk towards class.

I walk into class greeted with hellos from uraraka and iida, I guess I should consider them friends but friends really aren't my thing, I say that but I'm friends with a ghost for fuck sake.

I say a small hello back heading to my desk noticing Midoriya following me, if today is boring I'm sure he'll do something entertaining, get ur mind out the gutter, not that sort of entertainment obviously.

Mr. aizawa walks through the door, the class falls slightly immediately, even bakugo shuts up, the power of teachers eh?

"today students we'll be doing some extra training as I know we touched on it yesterday"

well fuck

luckily I have an undershirt, I got a few weird glances the other day for it but it was quickly forgotten, no one can find out, and I'll make sure they don't.

we all head to the changing rooms, kirishima stopping bakugo trying to blast minetas face off, honestly he deserves it trying to sneak in on the girls, fucking pervert. now that I see it kirishima isn't really doing much to stop him.

I glance to my left to see Midoriya,

"I can't wait to see you all train, well I saw some yesterday but I can't wait to see more"

I mood discretely not drawing attention to myself, I carry on walking and enter the changing rooms moving to the far corner to get some sort of privacy, Midoriya awkwardly sits down seeming to have something on his mind and keeping his gaze towards the ground as if something had grasped his interest.

I quickly get changed trying my best not to keep my arms exposed for any longer than needed, I rush out starting the green haired boy next to me as I head out to the training grounds, today is going to be interesting.

aizawa was already there seemingly impatient and how slow the class was taking, shortly after I had arrived several others came out has well. Once everyone was out aizawa decided to explain what we were doing,

"today class we will be battling in pairs, in order for you to recognise your weakness in battle you need to battle then we can work on those aspects next week, understood?"

the class nodded in response, let's hope I don't get partnered with that angry Pomeranian.

"now for the groups"
"uraraka and Asui
kaminari and kirishima
Mina and sero
bakugo and todoroki"

well fuck me gently with a chainsaw, I don't bother listening to the rest of the groups I'm busy thinking about what bakugo is going to do, blow my bloody face off probably; how splendid.

I fiddle with my sleeve, uraraka looks up at me noticing I stopped paying attention. "Are you alright todoroki?"

"oh uh yeh I'm fine"

she gives me a soft smile before turning her attention back to aizawa.

"first group, bakugo and todoroki, go get ready everyone else wait over there"

everyone follows the instructions going where they were told to, I walk over to where bakugo was heading assuming he knows where we're going. I had forgotten Midoriyas presence up until he startles me by saying. " I'll know you'll do well todoroki, just a heads up bakugo always starts with a punch from his right arm" he spoke cheerfully, I can't help but wonder why he knows that. I might ask about it later.

"You two hurry up" aizawa's impatient voice rings in my ears.

"ready.....you may start"

well shit remember what Midoriya said, right arm punch.

bakugo runs up towards me explosions emitting from his palms, "die you half n half bastard" he screams while raising his right arm, so Midoriya was right.
I grab his arm swinging him over my shoulder, I clearly caught him off guard as he let out a surprised squeak, i use this to my advantage and freeze his legs in place, gives me a bit of time to think out my next move.

he breaks free of the ice around his ankles and starts charging towards me again, despite the extra time I don't react quick enough and bakugo manages to burn my arms slightly, I groan in pain as it the heat comes in contact with my skin, he then knocks me to the ground.
oh crap my arms, I glance at them, the material is burnt off from his explosions exposing my scar littered arms, fuck fuck fuck fuck.

out of pure shock and slight pain I trap bakugo in a circle of ice in an attempt to get myself off the ground. I need to end this quickly before anyone notices my arms. Once again bakugo breaks out of my ice and heads towards me I panic and send a huge tonne of ice his way stopping him in his tracks, quite literally. I realise I have frozen his entire body besides his head, does that mean it's over.

I instinctively fold my arms around my torso coving then from others sight.

"todoroki wins" aizawa announces

I look around, faded green eyes catch my eyes, his expression reads it all, he saw, of course he saw. I tear my eyes away from him as to others I'm looking blankly at nothing.

"Midoriya..." I whisper before running back hurriedly to the changing rooms before anyone can stop me.

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a/n I'm going to try and upload long chapters like this from now on, might be longer between uploads considering I'm going back to school tomorrow,,,