spirit

secrets

Tw- self harm

Midoriya's PoV

todoroki mouths something and sprints off into the building, I stand there out of...shock I suppose. his arms littered with scars, I don't doubt there isn't more further up his arm.

I have to go find him. After standing for what seems like forever I hurriedly make my way into the school desperate to find him, to comfort him, tell him it's ok.

we haven't known each other long but I would do anything for him.

I run and run, to the classroom to the lunch hall, where did he go? my heart feels like it is beating extremely fast despite not being alive...I didn't realise I was this worried, I mean who wouldn't be if they saw that is.

suddenly a stroke of pure genius hits me, he's in the changing room! how could I be so silly.

at this realisation I run as fast as possible to the changing room, momentarily forgetting where it is. The y'all door looms in front of me, I gulp down the lump in my throat forming with worry, I keep telling myself, he's fine, right?

I push open the door looking around scanning to see where he is, nowhere?
wait I hear something, I strain my ears listening, someone's crying, fuck it's todoroki and it's coming from the showers. I enter the shower and see him lying on the floor crying, heart wrenching sobs and, and- oh no

blood spewing from open wounds on his arm, I cover my mouth tears spilling, i run over to him

"TODOROKI"

Todoroki's PoV

I don't want to be here, they all saw I'm sure of it, I don't want to stand the whispering again, please no.

I run, just run towards the changing rooms, my breathing is laboured from running and panicking, not a good combination obviously. I push open the door in a hurry nearly stumbling as it moved with little force needed.

I reach my bag my breathing evening out ever so slightly my mind is racing with thoughts as I reach for me realise. my razor.

I walk over to the showers,

pathetic everyone saw, can't even keep anything a secret, god, your so stupid

I'm sorry..

Not good enough

useless

you'll never become a hero

worthless

kill yourself

do it

Fine.

my heart beating fast, breath ragged, fingers shaking, I take a breath
Do it

I drag the blade along my already scared skin , I his at the pain but enjoy the calmness all the same, I slash it along my arm several more times before I know it I'm sobbing as blood drips onto the floor.

Tear cover my vision, blurs of read everything, my knees buckle as I feel faint. I end up lying down in a pool of my own blood sobbing as I will for death to take me.

"just please end all of this" I choke out.

I hear a creak in the distance, the door opening, oh fuck someone's going to find me, no no no no no no no no

I continue to cry, sobs shaking my body as blood continues to seep out of the wounds on my body.

I hear footsteps, my vision blurring more, and not due to my tears. Then I hear his voice. "TODOROKI"

Midoriya's PoV

oh no oh no oh no oh no
This can't be happening, I need to do something.

I run over to him whispering comforting things while trying to stop the bleeding, I have to get him back to the dorms without anybody seeing, as I don't think seeing a floating todoroki is the most normal thing to witness.

I pick him up carefully, he's not fully unconscious but he might as well be, he gives one last hiccup of a sob and just stares at my face as I carry him towards the door. "It's going to be alright todo"

I cream open the door looking around, no one, complete silence. am I able to make todoroki invisible as well?
I cautiously press my hand on his head, something seems to wash over him, wow didn't know I could do that, guess it's handy in situations like this.

Now that we both can be seen, I move as fast as I can towards the dorm keeping in mind the semi-conscious boy in my arms. "nearly there, it'll be ok" I look down into his eyes with a sad expression, I guess we all have our secrets.

We reach the dorms, I climb the stairs into todoroki's room, luckily I know which one it is. I lay him down on his bed running into the bathroom finding the first aid kit, surely the must be something helpful in here.

I sit on one side of the bed picking up one of his arms, their not too deep to he shouldn't need stitches just got to keep them bandaged to not get infected. I clean his cuts first, he winces as he seems to come back to reality.

"Midoriya.."

"hey it's alright just lay down"

he does what I say and I finish cleaning his cuts and bandaging them up. He sits up and I get him some water, he gladly takes it and drinks it.

"todoroki...you're going to have to talk to me about this" he freezes as soon as I say it, but he does need to talk about it because otherwise I'm going to worry to much about why he did this.

"I don't want to.." there's sadness in his voice, I don't push it but I'll get him to talk tomorrow. I pull him in for a hug making sure not to hurt him, he tended but then relaxes. He sighs in contentment.

"I worry about you todo, that's what friends do"

"I've never really had friends before"
his expression doesn't falter but I know he's hurting.

"Well I'm glad I can show you what a good friend is" I smile and he gives a small one back, nearly unnoticeable but still there.

"get some rest, I'm sure aizawa will check up on you to make sure you haven't disappeared but I'll be here until you wake up"

"ok, thank you izuku" he pulls the covers over himself, only then I realised he used my first name, I smile to myself. If only I had met him before..before then, I would be able to do everything normal with him instead of being a ghost. oh well, I'm just glad I can be here for him now, after all we all have secrets.

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A/n I hope this chapter was ok, the next chapter is going to be more lighthearted than this one :)

I've been to school for like three days and I've already been set like six pieces of h/w like??? rude???

also I'm surprised anyone is actually reading this so thank you ( ^ω^ )