Trap House One Shots

You're not a Burden

*trigger warning*
Requested

Most people loved the middle of summer. It was so supposed to be exciting, people were supposed to go on adventures.

Except me. Everyone. But not me.

Instead I wore sweatshirts that hide my scars and kept mostly to myself.

Of course the people I hung out with were people I loved and they knew I wasn't always happy but they didn't know how bad it could get.

Right now I was hanging out with Sam and Colby. Jake has gone out and would be back sometime but I didn't know when.

So here I was again, with a sweatshirt on to cover up what I didn't want anyone to see.

As I sat down next to Colby I didn't see the curious glance he gave me, studying my sweatshirt. My eyes were glued to my phone and I didn't feel like talking much, I just wanted to enjoy the company.

"Hey (y/n)," he started as he turned more to face me, "hmm?" I didn't like up from my phone but acknowledged that I had heard him, "why are you wearing a sweatshirt when it's incredibly hot outside and it's the middle of the summer?" He asked.

Instantly Sam's eyes shot up from his phone and he came to sit on the couch to so now I was in the middle of them.

My eyes widened and I bit my lip. I shrugged, "it's comfortable," trying to play it off cool but it didn't work as well as I hoped. "Bullshit," Sam frowned at me.

I was stuck. "I swear Sam, it's just comfortable, the heat doesn't bother me," I tried to smile at him but you could tell he wasn't buying it. I looked at Colby and he wasn't buying it either.

"Why don't you just take it off for right now," Colby said gently, "I don't have a shirt underneath," I said quickly, "again. Bullshit. We can see the shirt (y/n)," Sam's frowned deepened.

"I think we should drop this," I was starting to get pissed. They were getting closer to finding out and I didn't want them to.

I wanted Jake to come home. I needed his hugs right now and his soft kisses.

"(Y/n) we aren't trying to make you angry, we just want you to try and take the sweatshirt off, okay?" Colby's voice was soft in my ear.

We all knew what would happen when I took it off. They knew what I was hiding, I could tell. I wasn't ready to tell them but I was stuck and there wasn't a way of getting out of it.

I sighed and took off my sweatshirt slowly. As soon as it was off everyone's eyes went to my arms.

"Does anyone know?" Colby's asked gently. I shook my head but I couldn't speak. "Not even Jake?" I shook my head again. Tears began to form in my eyes.

Colby pulled me into a hug and I started to cry softly. "I feel so lost Colby," I mumbled into his chest.

I didn't feel Sam get up and walk out of the room and I didn't hear him call Jake.

All I could do was cry and tell Colby how much pain I was in.

It didn't take long for Jake to come back and when I saw me I swear I'd never seen him run harder.

He thanked Sam and Colby before they both left.

Next Jake turned to me and took my hands in his. "(Y/n)," he whispered gently and put his hand to my cheek, rubbing softly, "you are the light of my life and I love you. And as cheesy as that sounds," I burst out laughing at he laughed along with me before calming down enough to finish, "as cheesy as that sounds, I mean it." I looked into his eyes that were so genuine.

I leaned in and kissed him softly. His lips moved against mine in an addicting way.

His touch was gently and when I pulled away I then leaned into his chest. I closed my eyes and let out a soft sigh before completely relaxing into him.

"I just want to feel okay, and when I'm with you Jake I feel better then okay." I mumbled softly.

Jake gently picked me up before placing me on top of him on the couch.

When we had both gotten comfortable I spoke again, "sometimes I feel closed in, like I'm unable to breathe. I'm so wrapped up in the world around me and it can hurt my mind and the only way I can get that hurt to stop is to cut. I never wanted to hurt anyone around me or have them worry about me," I spoke into his chest but he heard every word.

"I understand. But you aren't a burden to those around you. We all care about you and are willing to listen to you. I promise."

His voice was the best lullaby to my ears and I felt myself falling asleep but I didn't want to.

Jake noticed, "it's okay (y/n), fall asleep. I'll be right here when you wake up," he kissed my forehead and that's all it took before I let myself sleep.

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Hi everyone!!

I'm sorry I haven't been writing any stories and I'm sorry this is so short. This was a request by someone and I really wanted to write it.

Just so you all know, you aren't alone. Cutting isn't your only way out. I promise.

Hope you all are doing okay :)