Osomatsu san x reader Oneshots!

All Matsus x Selfhate! Reader

Request from my bff on wattpad Cookiemoonlight thank you so much for everything! Love ya!

Warning!
-suicide
-mentions of deaths
-sensitive topics

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What a beautiful item you have in your hand, very useful, makes you happy, and you would protect it with all your heart so no one else sees the item.

The item is important, you bring it to almost everywhere you go. You've grown attached and addicted to it.

You've been so depressed lately that you just wanted to die at some point.

Die

Die

Die

Die

It's all what other people asked you to do, you remember so vaguely.

"Can you die? No one needs you anyways" Was the most common in the book.

You found this precious item in your parents house and stole it, and ever since then you've been using it to make you feel happy, it's at least the closest to killing yourself.

What is that special item, you wonder? Well heh, isn't it obvious already?  A fucking box cutter.

You never used the box cutter for use of what it's suppose to be used.

Your still cutting things with the box cutter, but not for boxes. It's quite obvious judging by your bloody arm that never stops bleeding due to how frequently you cut yourself.

Enough about hurting yourself, you also hated yourself so so much. You don't know why, maybe it's because of how many people say how much of a disappointment you are to them.

You started thinking of suicide at fourth grade, which is a pretty young age to be thinking those things.

The only people you really have is the ridiculous sextuplets who live just about a couple blocks away from you.

They were by your side after everything you've went through. They were overprotective of you and they cared about you, you cared so much about them too but you started thinking of the words from other people.

I'm just a burden they have to carry, I'm a disappointment to them and they are just doing this for pity.... The don't care about me, I know they don't.

You were on your bed, laying down and staring at the ceiling. Hugging your favorite stuffed animal that Jyushimatsu gave to you last month.

They hate me, they hate me, they hate me, they hate me.....

You repeated those three word in your head until you started sobbing uncontrollably and couldn't stop no matter how hard you bit your lip.

The evil voices in your head kept bringing your hopes down after you've made progress. It feels like ten people were screaming so highly that you didn't even hear your phone ringing.

You just clenched onto your blanket and covered your face with it, forcing your eyes to stop water.

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"They're not picking up" Totty said as he lowered his phone from his ear.

"Do you think (Y/N) is okay?" Choromatsu frowned and closed his eyes, hoping his crush would be alright.