What the Heart Needs - JiKook

Chapter 10 - Nightmare

Even with Jungkook's scent to lull me to sleep and his arms around my back making me feel so comfortable, my mind was still far from ease. Each time I woke up, he hadn't moved at all, but at one point his mouth was hanging open and he snored really loud. That would probably annoy most people, but all I could do was snicker. I wanted to laugh just as loud as that snore had been; it was just so cute and his sleeping face was adorable. No, I'd never let Jihoon take this from me. I would always be with Jungkook. Misun deserved a father, but it wasn't me. I just knew I wasn't... I hope.

I laid on Jungkook's chest, chin resting on my linked fingers as I watched his face. I could do this forever, and if I had my way, I would do just this for the rest of my life. Heaving a heavy sigh, my head tilted with a smile. Kookie stirred and mumbled in his sleep. I reached up and brushed his hair back to calm what I thought might be a dream.

"Why aren't you sleeping?", he mumbled without opening his eyes.

"Because watching you is more fun.", I whispered back.

Jungkook's eyes opened and looked down to see me staring at him. He smiled and stroked through my hair and I closed me eyes to it. "Are you worried?", he was still reading my mind.

"How can I not be? What if I'm really that little girl's father?"

Kookie's arms tightened around my back, then he sat up straight, moving me into his lap and gave me a long soft kiss. "Then you are.", he used a finger to raise my chin, "We can't change whatever the truth is, but we will deal with it together, no matter what it is. Nothing will separate us again."

My eyes started to sting and I buried my face into his chest as he held me. A little time apart had really opened his eyes and made him grow. Had I grown, too? I wonder if we could do it this time. Could we really keep it healthy and in check? Yes, after thinking about that time apart, I knew the answer. Having a taste of life without each other, I knew for certain we would be fine. Nothing could separate us now, not even Jihoon or having a daughter. Starting to relax as Jungkook rocked me, he leaned and we laid back down, falling comfortably back into sleep.

Morning came and I tried my best to keep my mind off what was coming. We only had a few things on the schedule today, but the guys had let us out of participating. We were supposed to do a group Vlive to promote a seasonal photo package, but Jin, Hoseok and Namjoon-hyung opted to do it and give us some time alone before the meeting later. I was so thankful for this moment they gave us, we spent it in constant contact. Watching movies, talking about everything and nothing, and just soaking up each other. We never even left the comfort of our bed. I was laying on Jungkook's chest, his arm around my back holding me close as we played with each other's fingers, not even talking anymore, when a knock hit our door; making us both jump and be swallowed by anxiety. We knew what it meant; it was time.

The door creaked open slowly, "You guys dressed?", Yoongi spoke through the crack.

"Yeah, we have just been laying here all day. Nothing dirty, you can come in.", I called back to him and he opened the door and walked over to us.

Yoongi sat at the edge of the bed and tried to speak, looking for the right words as he avoided direct eye contact.

"It's okay, hyung, I know... it's time."

"Yeah...", he hung his head, then looked at me with worried eyes. "Are you going to be okay?"

"WE will be just fine.", I smiled, taking Kookie's hand into both of mine, "No matter what, we will get through it."

"Glad to hear it. We are about to go.", he patted my leg and stood to make his way out.

"Ready, Marshmallow?", Jungkook asked after Yoongi had left.