Little Things Hayes Grier

Chapter 40

It's been so much fun this week. Thankfully my cousin and Jared were not home when I was and my aunt wasn't home yet. she came home about 2 hours Matt and I came home. I explained to Matt everything so he can pay along with me. my aunt never knew a thing.. Matt came to North Carolina with me and we're just having a blast. Matt and I were laying down in my bed and Matt's head was laying on my thighs and I was running my fingers through his hair. We were laughing while watching 21 jump street on Netflix. My phone started to ring, Matt looked at me and mouthed 'who is it' I shrugged and without looking at the caller ID I answered and what a surprise it was Hayes.

I huffed "Hello?"

"Jenn?" Hayes asked it sounded like he was crying

"Yes?" I asked with an attitude

"Where are you? we have to talk." Hayes said sniffling

"I have a friend over right now." I said

"Oh."

"Maybe another time." I said harshly

"Wait who is over?" Hayes asked with concern

"Does that matter to you?" I asked

"Jenn, your my girlfriend I should know who your hanging out with."

"Actually Hayes you ruined us once again." I stated

Hayes sighed "I wasn't being serious when I asked if we were done."

"Well, I was being serious."

"I'm coming over." Hayes said hanging up

I took the phone off my ear and saw the ID disappeared

"Shit, Matt lock the front doors I got the windows." Matt nodded and we ran downstairs.

I was closing all the windows and Matt was closing the doors I told Matt to close the blinds and he did so I heard knocking on the front door and I told Matt to run into the living room and duck behind the couch. Matt and I heard knocking again we look at each other and I just nodded at him and we just ignore him. "What did He say on the phone?" Matt whispered

"He asked who I was with and I just said it doesn't really concern you and then he said well you're my girlfriend I should know this stuff and I said well no you're not because you ended us."

I sighed "then he said that he didn't really mean it when he said that when he asked me if we wanted to end this and I said well I'm serious about this and he said he said coming over so I guess that's why he's here knocking."

10 minutes past and hayes is still knocking on the door "this is ridiculous" Matt said I nodded and I said "well let's just stay here let's try to go upstairs quietly without him seeing me through the window upstairs"

"What if he sees us?" Matt asked

"Then there is really nothing we can do I just can't lie to him"

.Well technically you're not lying to him you just said it doesn't concern him about who your with." Matt stated

The knocking finally stopped me and Matt popped her head up to the window I may look up the porch Matt saw Hayes walking down the driveway.

"finally lets go upstairs Jenn."

Matt started to walk away and go up the stairs I just kept looking out the window I was really debating on to run outside and just hug him and kiss him and say I want him back but he messed it up it was his fault this time. I don't know why he's constantly does this. Hayes accuses me and Matt or some other person that I'm doing something even if I'm with the girls. he's always assuming I'm doing something that I'm not even doing it's ridiculous sometimes He has no trust for me and I can't date someone that doesn't trust me, sometimes we barely have anything to talk about because he just ugh it's so stupid...

I want to date someone that we can actually trust me like Matt I mean he trusts me and we're just so close I literally could tell him anything but he's I don't know because Matt trusts me all the time. With Hayes we just always have fights but with Matt I never had a fight with him. the four years that I've known almost 5 years he just always had no trust in me in the first year we had the coolest cutesy best relationship everything was doing so great and then he just lost interest or something I don't know it was just he just it's so stressful that's why this time it was The end because I can't date someone that literally has no trusting with me and it's not even fun and anymore if he thinks I'm gonna go do out go off and do something even though he's the one I was doing it.

In fact he's probably cheated on me like 40 million times but it doesn't even matter anymore because were done and were never ever getting back together seriously like I can do whatever I want now I'm so much more free I can actually do things like it's go out with my friends I can make New Friends and with other guys so he doesn't judge me or be pissed off at me. And now that I secretly brought Matt to my house without anyone knowing I can actually not keep it a secret anymore and I can tell people because he is not in charge of me. I never knew me and Hayes would actually end up like this but you know, it was maybe it was meant to be and maybe I should just go back to Florida or something but then I leave behind my cousins my aunt my uncle Matt Nash all the guys like I have so many memories here and I can't run away because of one guy. He is not just gonna run me out of this town because of our fight I guess I should work things out and just keep it friends I guess. but it would absolutely kill me to not be able to hug hayes or kiss or cuddle with him or hold hands. it would just hurt me. It would probably hurt a lot more to Hayes. because we won't flirt or just talk or be the same if we're not together it's going to be really hard to forget but you got to forget the past. I just have to start forgetting everything is going to be the hardest thing. It's April now and in two months in June I'm going to be going off to college and you know what I don't know if I'm staying in North Carolina I don't know I'm going back to Florida I don't know if I'm going to California like I've always dreamed of I don't know if I'm going to Australia I don't know I'm going to Italy I don't know where I'm going at all I don't know what I'm doing I'm always been so worked up with Hayes in my life so it's been so focused on other things I never worked in school that much because I've always been on trips because I'm always going to magcon or an another event I'm just never home and I probably won't get into a good college if I missed so much school.

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Two hours later and me and Matt were just watching TV in the living room TV it was just awkward I guess for me not for Matt because I was thinking about Hayes and our relationship. I feel like I should just stop avoiding the situation and just talk it out but I've told myself I'm going to keep my promise about what I've stated I'm going to ignore Hayes but at the same time I don't want to I want to figure things out. Hey

"Matt I'm just going to go walk around while okay?"

"Do you want me to come?" Matt asked sitting up

"No it's alright you can stay here I'll be back soon you can go in the fridge in the kitchen whatever you want if you need anything I am here. just call me later."

"Okay Jen" I'll see you later Matt stood up and hugged me and kissed my cheek.

I smiled and I walked to the front door I unlocked the front door and I closed the door behind me and I made my way to Hayes's house...