Tears of a Angel & Screams of a Demon

My Pain#10

I used to sit n beat up myself asking what's wrong with me why don't anyone loves me until one day a voice in my head said shut the fuck up n stop blaming urself the voice said the reason why u'r going through this is because u'r special n when u'r special u'll face the hardest challenges in life no one will love u people won't understand u people will laugh at u people will call u names people will scorn u people will pity u people will try to look down on u n the reason why they do that is cause their lives r sad n they grudge u I was meant for a much greater purpose than what's being shown to me
They say God forgives but I don't hope he forgives them for saying that I'mma tell u something anywhere there is Anger there is Honesty anywhere there is Money there is Jealousy anywhere there is Love there is Pain not everything that looks beautiful is good between every right n wrong there is a line of blindness it's only when certain situations unfolds that u'll be able to see through it

I'm one of the realest persons out there i see things for what they really are it's up to u to decide what u do with it I always write my pain in my lines all my life I've felt alone felt like there's nobody around until I realized the wisest men r always by themselves so idgaf I'mma continue keeping it real I'm on my lonely horse n I'mma ride fuck people n what they think of me
U haven't feel pain unless u've been in a relationship n everyday u can feel the walls slowly getting thinner till u can no longer see the love u once had for each other n u end up in a dark place stuck with just one last matches to ignite that candle to shine that light so each of u can find back ur way to each other but it's raining pain n bad memories n u know if u light that match one drop of that rain n u'll lose each other forever
Don't let people tell u ur limits n don't ever try to change who u r to please anyone doing that would just be looking at ur self as a reflection in a mirror trying to suffocate the main reason that makes u the person u r please urself n not others their opinions don't matter what matters is the way how u live ur life
Stuck in a maze with my own afflictions finding me every corner I go n blocking every exit I see my perspective of life has become so compromised my trust for people so attenuated n my love for them so insubstantial I swear.