Tears of a Angel & Screams of a Demon

My Pain#3

People say I'mma mad man but I like it cause u don't know when or what I'mma do I'mma alchemist u can't study me if u try to test me in insanity I'mma finish u whenever people come too close in my life just like a movie I flip the script remembering primary days when I was thinking about life n how I'mma survive it the other kids be running with cold in their nose i was always different from my peers n I still was even up till high school years I didn't play with others many times I went to school hungry but I was a g I went one side n wipe my tears n even
till now I'm a loner if I fuck a bitch I ain't gon act like I own her my actions created a lot of secrets that I promise never to tell but trying to keep them is like I'm already living in hell who the fuck are u to tell me my destiny my future is my own all my years on earth I've never met my clone I always think big I want to make a mansion no house n live in a place where no one knows about too much fake people where I'm staying they laid traps n thought I would took the fall swear to make it in life I'mma give it my all sometimes I feel to fuck my life n sniff cocaine pressures so hard to deal with nigga don't try to compare us cause we're not the same the more time goes by the more my heart fills with pain now I'm sitting here wondering when shits gon change thought I was out of the dark but my lifes still the same mom told me to hold my head up high but never to pass the sky cause showing off brings disgrace nigga how can u say I'm I'm ur friend when u mention my name in a crime I didn't commit I used to walk with u talk with u guess it's true what they say there's a end- in fri-end n the end is now i be working all night till
the sun light left my ex found a new girl she became my old girl if u a bitch u can't get my number I stay in my own lane idgaf what people say I'm in my own world I don't fuck with school girls when I was broke everyday it felt like I was losing u till eventually I did now u want to come back cause my ice on my neck is yellow like pikachu I don't see the sence to take u back unless I'mma use u but I ain't gon do it cause u got so used to now is money on my mind I work so hard for it I give God thanks for every dime ever since my mom died I've been really looking in my
life I'mma go harder than ever to make her proud so in heaven she can smile I really love a girl but she's with another guy n I know she's not happy deep inside but she said I'm always bad lucked to ask her when she's already with someone else otherwise she'd be mine maybe one day I'll get her it's just time then I remember all the pain that I went through never had nobody to guide me out of bad situations I was always looking into space didn't know what to do had to become a man at a young age never knew who to trust cause everybody was so fake never knew who
were real till it was too late gave a girl my heart that's how I knew what was heart break had a habit of caring about people too much that's why they always keep hurting me now I'm thinking it's time to change they gon say why I'm so evil but I know my reason I had to learn the hard way I just can't put my faith in people told that girl  the guy she's with is only playing her she tries to deny it but I think deep down she knows I'm telling her the truth but it's her life I can't tell her what to do I got a sis in the town n I really miss her n probably she thinks I don't care about
her cause I'm not really around but I  know one day I'll see her all my life I've felt so down sometimes I wonder about the love that I never knew but It's hard to get close to someone cause one day they gon try n use u but I learnt from my mistakes I'm not that lil boy anymore I grew 👌💯