Tears of a Angel & Screams of a Demon

My Pain#9

Nowadays it makes no sense running after someone that won't even walk for u or fighting for someone that won't even lift a finger for u the day u start asking someone else if u'r good enough that is the day u've lost all ur Pride, Dignity, Respect n Value for urself Acceptance is one of the most expensive things in this world cause it's paid from within but it isn't worth losing urself over for someone else to buy it
People say they know ur pain but do they really give a damn hard to know living in a world like this so messed up n cruel it starts to stain see people get lost in the money n all the fame leaving their families that help them when they were nothing It seems they have no shame sometimes I wish I had wings so I could fly away from all the causes n reasons that led up to my pain nowadays I don't know who to fuck with a girl will say she love's u n she'll never put any other guy above u how nice that would be if was really true I've played this game before so fuck u

My heart goes out for all the people that has lost someone sometimes the pain so rough it feels like a fuckin storm I get so angry when they say I should just move on I know it's not bad advice but they don't know my life remembering all the things we been through sometimes I start to cry n I swear every time I see ur pictures I just want to die I start to ask God why he had to take u away from me is this the way it suppose to be but to me it's just not right I just wish I had one more chance to show u how much u meant to me
My nerves are a wreck my heart's like burnt tire see people coming from nothing to something n for that I'm inspired I don't roll with liars as a young g I've been through some hard times only had my prayers n hopes to see a better day n to get me through the nights had a lot a bitches but all of them end up doing me wrong now I'm single I'm seeing a different light ain't got much friends don't know who really to trust life for some can seem very unfair but everything happens for a reason

I've made so many sacrifices but still nothing's changed got so much things on my mind it starts to weighs have so much pain build up inside my faith starts to break out of all these bitches u were the one I rate seems the more I love u is the more I suffer nigga say he love's u but he won't make it official I wonder if u think being with him is even beneficial he doesn't say he loves u until u ask him gave u all my attention but still u pass me but I guess it's ok one day u gonna see what u lost when I go away
I've been in a void of loneliness for so long till it was enough to make me lose my mind two times over it was when I stopped denying it n started to embrace it I was then able to regain stability n took my time crawling out of it believe me it's not a nice place to be all u see is pure nothingness n echoes of ur own screams baffling back at u.