Tears of a Angel & Screams of a Demon

My Pain#8

Don't bring that shit to me all ur empty promises about love didn't mean shit to me all I wanted was ur company but I guess I'm not worth it cause I'm not braffing like them other niggaz n driving fast cars but now that nigga leave u bitch u'r so stupid u actually think he needed u now u begging me to come back bitch please u fell off track n there's no way of fixing that but hey didn't u say u want to bring my baby looking back at that now u must be crazy remember when u were talking to ur friends u tried to shame me talking bout I should get a work n I'm lazy now thing's looking up for me u want to jump in n act cool u must think I'mma fool best thing was when I lost u tried so hard to replace me congrats u did now where are u I can't even see u oh wait he just used u
Time alone showed me life is a game n I'm the dice some people gonna come round u only for the cheese they're like mice u gonna get fuck if u'r too nice my eyes were really open since I was 10 never had no one to talk to but myself sometimes living was like a hell never made anyone tell me my value people only gonna see u when u'r gone getting ready to go underground so easy to be committed to the wrong hard to know what's really right nowadays I got no feelings been round people but still feel alone seems loneliness n heart breaks are the only things that's there for me in the end

It's hard living a life when u know there's Mistakes around every corner Lies at every bend with no real Truth at the end every step u take is meaningless every breath pointless all leading to a race between ur Life n Time with Death breathing down ur neck n u see that last glimmer of light slowly being devoured by pitch black darkness with whispers in ur ears telling u u'r not strong enough, ur worthless, it was all ur fault, u should of died at birth, n that no one loves u
It breaks my heart to see this shit gave u my all n still u split thought u were a diamond but u'r a bitch didn't know u'd hurt my feelings like this whenever I hear ur name I spit u thought when u left me I'd end up dead in some ditch fuck u n ur words they didn't mean shit but life is a game it's just the way how u play it sometimes u'll rise n u'll fall I'm sorry I told u how I felt about u maybe I wouldn't be in this situation I dedicated my all into this shit I work so hard I never quit struggles in life made me into a man I was living before I met u n that's what I'mma continue to do

I'm beginning to start hearing my foot steps moving away from people that said no matter what they'd stay n accepting my faith everyone that I've been with I always felt as if I was weighing them down my life is just 5% Pleasure 15% Love 30% Hate n 50% Pain but it's ok people will disappoint u n the sooner u realize that the sooner u'll know to depend on ur self the day u on that hospital bed or prison cell n laying flat on ur face that's when u know who really cares time away from people can show u many things n give u clarity of things that were actually there but couldn't see
Sometimes I'm walking by my self n it's like my brain n time itself hit each other on different axles causing me not to know whether I'm in physical consciousness or in a dream state the world is spinning but I'm not, caught in between a glitch of what's real n what's not it's sad but some people just weren't meant to feel loved.