[of dreams and galaxies]

[patience]

/sabr/ I want to learn how to be patient and maybe I already know what it is but my heart is just not used to it or maybe my heart doesn't want to get used to it. Because I see sabr in my mother's eyes when she never fights back my father's yelling, I see sabr in the way I'm hungry but my heart is filled with passion to fast /faith/

My tears are threatening to fall and I tell my heart to have sabr. But the request comes back at my mouth / my heart said no/ I want to paint huge galaxies but I know I'm not that good and I'm disappointed, my sister tells me to be patient /you'll get better with time and practice / she says/ I nod and now I'm thinking that maybe time and practice is all I need/to get better at painting/to get better at being patient/

It's 2 am and again I'm telling my heart to be patient but it ignore my pleas and I'm crying / in the shower / or maybe it's just water not tears / and I'm telling myself that I don't have to be patient all the time / sabr/ it's hard and easy at the same time, I'm coaxing my cat out from under the bed because I know he is hungry/it's easy /,  I want to scream at the world for my heartache /it's hard / beta sabr Kiya karo/ my mother tells me.
                       Sabr
                        Sabr
                / aur phir agar sabr karna itna asaan hota phir tou koi pareeshani hi na hoti /