[of dreams and galaxies]

[ RIP]

On days thoughts come haunting me in broad daylight or in the middle of night, dark so dark it almost chokes me. And I think of death, of what woudo it feel like. Will it give way to peace. Everyone says "rest in peace" when someone does. But when someone dies, do they really get peace. Or is it just a lie. Rest in peace why does no one ever wishes an alive person with "live in peace" why can't peace come to us when our heart doesn't feel like us anymore. When the grief becomes too much but we forget the reason for the said grief. There's no reason. None. So why we cry and grief so much. Why do we mourn the peaceful days. Why is it that the only time we recieve peace is when we die. What about living in peace, living in harmony, living in a home that feels like it. Living but rather I keep searching for a home but no home welcomes me anymore. My heart feels small, so small. That it will stop beating and I won't be able to search my home. Why do we run towards this concept of home when we know there's no home for our hearts. For this sadness and brokenness.