Between The Lines

twenty five

        My Friday night was nothing more then this. Sitting on my couch with Buffy and watching whatever my remote happened to land on. Noah's face still haunts my very mind, everything i see somehow links to him and i fall into a sense of sadness. Peter has been texting me a lot, which helps me get my mind of things.. not for very long.. but it's something... right?

        "Buffy" I mumble, his ears perk up. "I wish you were human"

        He just blinks at me. 

        So, i blink back.

        Okay, so maybe i really need to start going out more.

        Peter was flying down from Portland to look at houses in Santa Monica. I was excited to see him again. I wasn't sure what Peter was to me. I knew he was a friend, yeah, but i didn't know if was anything more to me. I wasn't sure if i wanted anything more.

        My phone virbates on the table and i see Grace's caller ID.

        "Hello?"

        "BaeBae" Grace giggles

        "Gracie" I greet.

        "What are you doing on this lovely Friday evening?"

        "Well" I say, I look around my depressing life and sigh. "Nothing exciting"

        "Thomas is over" She says happily

        "Oh cool" I say, "Tell him i said hi"

        "You should come over, I think Lu and Tasha aren't doing anything" Grace suggests.

        "Sounds like a plan" i say, "I'll be over in 10"

        The drive to Grace's house is a short one, usually because i have this tendency to speed when Fitz & The Tantrums come on. My thumbs bounce on the wheel as i pull into the parking lot of her apartment.

        "I have arrived" I say, letting myself in. 

        "Aye!" Thomas yells, a beer in hand. He runs up and gives me a tight hug. 

        "Hey Tommy boy" I look to see Lucas and Grace arguing over something, and poor Tasha sitting awkwardly in the chair.

        "Hey Tasha" I say, giving her a smile.

        "Oh Hey Sophie!" She replies, then leans to talk to me, "How are you?"

        "I'm doing alright" I smile, "You?"

        "Amazing" 

        I lean back and sigh, Yes i'm happy for my two best friends. No, i'm not really all that happy. Maybe, I am a bit jealous of their happiness. But instead of feeling sorry for myself I should just suck it up and live. Grace told me once that sitting on my couch isn't going to change wants going on around me, It'll just make it even harder to deal with later on. 

        I remember groaning at how true and wise that statement was.

        "Drink?" Lucas says, offering me one.

        "Thanks Chap" I smile. He nods and sits in the chair with Tasha. That chair really is not made for two people but i wasnt going to be that person to point that out to them.

        "So anything good happening at KTLA?" Lucas asks.

        Grace snorts, "Depends if you classify 'My producer being the biggest a-hole on this side of the Mississippi' a good and interesting thing"

        "I supoose not" Tasha laughs, Lu looks down at her, his eyes flickering between hers and her lips. I look away when he leans down and kisses her on the lips. I suck in a breath and look to Thomas and Grace. Thomas is looking over at Grace, Grace then turning to look at him, winking. 

        "I need to go to the bathroom" I mumble, getting up and run out of the PDA overloaded living room.

        Leaning agianst the marble counter, i breath in and out. I need to calm down. I need to get these thoughts about Noah out of my head. Why does he have so much power over me? He's with Brit,  It's not like i owe him anything, he shouldn't be able to do this to me without even being here with me.

        There was a soft knock on the door.

        "Soph?" Lucas says thru the door, "Soph, you alright?"

        "Yeah" I call out, "I'm cool, go back to the others. I'll be out in a second"

        There was a beat of silence, "Alright" 

        I look up into the mirror. My blonde hair was a mess in the bun, hair flying out. I was a mess. Noah was making me a mess. I reach into my jean pocket and pull out my phone. Sliding my finger across the screen, it unlocks and i check twitter. Of course the top tweet on my dash is Britt.

        Out w/ bae. Everyone ship us! #Nritt 

        Gag.

        Britt's fans all retweet and like it. I guess dating a fake blonde who happened to sound good after heavy amounts of autotune make you suddenly a celebrity.  huh.

        I was about to cyber stalk Noah's twitter when the screen freezes, then a caller screen appearing.

        Noah Harper was callling. Shat.

        "Hello?" I say, gulping.

        "Sophie" Noah breaths, "Look we need to talk,ever since the other day you've been ignoring me and avoiding me"

        "Oh" Is all i could think of to say.

        "why?" He says, "I mean i thought we had something?"

        "Well" I pause, "I did to"

        "Then why avoid me?" He asks, "If we were on the same page"

        "Are you dating Britt?" I ask. There is a beat of silence.

        "Yea" I snort. "But it's not real Soph-"

        "It looks pretty real to me" I snap, "This back and forth is shit and is legitimately giving me whiplash"

        "I know" He sighs, "But the things is, her dad is our boss. She has to like me,  I have to be on her good side. Soph i could get into trouble"

        "Noah I already am in trouble" I hiss, "Remember how i was sorta banned from all company events? Because of you? I made a sacrifice. So don't expect me to come running to you when you havent exactly been prince charming"

        " I didn't ask for you to get in trouble Sophie"

        "I know you didn't" I say, "But your asking me for something, your asking me to be something with you. I refuse to be with someone who won't give me back what i put into it"

        "I give you things Sophie" He hisses. He's getting mad now.

        "Showing up at my house for a quicky before you go on a date with Britt isn't exactly 'giving me something' Noah."

        He snorts, "Like you didn't enjoy it"

        "Cockiness is a turn off" I snap.

        Thats when i hung up.