Not Alone

Chapter 6: Never

Months has passed since I have seen her last. But I didn't miss her. Just something about seeing her snap at me the rage in her eyes. It broke me. And then finally I gave up on her. I had tried explaining what happened to Mike. But of course he didn't understand. So I was left alone to contemplate whether I was being irrational about the situation or not.

I still think about her all the time, but I can feel my name slowing fading from her memory. My heart had stopped yearning for her so I was okay with the thought of her not wanting me.

I walked down the long path to my girl best-friend's house, Rayna.
I haven't talked to her since Cass and I broke up so I doubt she even knows anything. I knock on the door rapidly.

"HONEY!" she screeches after she opens the door and the pulls me close in her embrace.

"Ray-Fish!" I scream back and she slants her eyes towards me as I call her, her nickname since kindergarten. I giggle after. I study the odd way her eyebrows are arched.

She ignores me and then takes me into her small little living room. Ray sits on the couch and I sit in the recliner. The two only pieces of furniture are angled towards each other.

"So" she claps her hands together and smiles from ear to ear, "is her baby bump of so cute?"

My smile turns to a frown and Rayna looks at me confused. "Ray, we are no longer together."

"WHAT!" She screams and the begins to throw and tantrum of random stomping and fist pounding.

And then I find myself reciting the whole ordeal once more, just like I had with Mike. Except now I'm not the one crying. Looking at her is like watching the sad part in a movie over and over again. Her shoulders continue to shoot up as her lungs scream for air and the hair around her face lays stiff from all the tears.

After I finish explaining, I stand up and go hug her. She doesn't wrap her arms around me, even though I should be the one crying. She just sits there arms right by her side and her chest shaking for the craving of air.

"Why would she do this to us?" she rattles out.

I'm baffled. "Us?"

"I was invested in y'all's relationship and then just like that she wants to forget about you. All that you both went through and it's just that easy To give you up."

I smile at her now. and think ahh. Someone who understands. And now we both hug each other.

"I'm sorry to say this, Honey but she never really loved you. Never really cared the only reason she was with you is because of the baby. It was all a mistake. Never meant to be. Never. Never." She mutters out. Her words sting and I hear the word NEVER echoing in my ears.