𝐎𝐮𝐫 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐍𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐅𝐚𝐝𝐞

【21】

Listen to the song kind of matches the chapter

𝘖𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳'𝘴 𝘗𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦

We found another group with a town a safe one for how ever long it keeps. Carl and I really love it here so that's good "hey Oliver" I look up and see its Grayson "sup Gray" oh yea Grayson's one of Carl's new friends' he's really nice "Carl wants to see you follow me and I'll bring you to him" I hesitantly decide to go with him for the sake of Carl if he actually did need me. Gray always gave me a weird feeling but I went with it "alrighty then lets go"  I walked behind Gray and he brought me to his house...uh maybe carl's here I highly doubt it? I turn around and look around the house looking for Carl "wheres car-" I'm cut off from gray putting his hand over my mouth by now my eyes are wide and I'm freaking out I try speaking but its muffled my body starts shaking going into fight or flight mode as I struggle against his grip "calm down you'll be fine.."

𝘾𝙖𝙧𝙡'𝙨 𝙋𝙚𝙧𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚

I was walking around looking for Grayson and the others I spot gray and Ollie walking down the street I run over "hey babe hey gray" "hey.." I look at Oliver worried why he sounded off "sup" I give a quick smile at Gray before turning my attention to Oliver "you alright Ollie?" I say with a soft tone "I'm sure he's fine he's been with me all day" I find this a little skeptical why was he with Gray? "alright.." I hugged Oliver and he flinched? "you sure you're okay?" I whisper into his ear "no help me.." I realize what happened fairly quickly my grip on Oliver tightened protectively as I tensed "hey uh me and Ollie are gonna go hang with his sister I wanna see Lee and Eli" "alright" I began to walk off holding Oliver protectively still and we make our way to Daryl Alexis and the kiddo's "hey um I'm gonna go to the bathroom" I look down at Oliver and smile kissing his forehead "Alright call me if you need anything" he nodded and walked off toward Alexis's house.

𝘖𝘭𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳'𝘴 𝘗𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘦

THIS MAY BE TRIGGERING TO READERS SKIP IF UNCOMFORTABLE WITH SELF HARM/CUTTING

I pull out my knife and slide down the wall my emotions crumbling down as I start breathing heavily while tears slipped down my cheeks ever so often as I shakily held the knife to my wrist hesitating slightly not sure till something snaps in me and I just start sliding the knife across my wrist pushing down so it cuts into me.

SLASH 1 for being weak and letting him touch me.

SLASH 2  for letting Carl down.

SLASH 3 for letting everyone walk over me.

I cut again but this one goes deeper. sit on the floor bleeding out. Someone starts knocking softly "Oli you good in there??" The knocking turned into banging and it gets louder I wanna answer knowing its Carl but the words just wouldn't come out I felt myself slipping as the wet crimson blood ran down my wrists just like the tears on my face "Oliver?" I see Carl walk in and then everything goes black.