Love is as cold as my heart is growing
What I mean by that is I'm not good looking
I dress the part but nothing beats classic facial expressions
Well shit sometimes that's just what it is
I've been told I have what it takes
In life, theatre, and even in friendships
But do I have what it takes to be in a relationship?
At this point love is just an illusion
A theory that one person can see another differently than everyone else
But maybe that's just the loneliness talking
Maybe I've finally had enough of being the kind guy
Because in this day and age the quiet guy gets hurt more than the dicks
In this day and age we don't have a say in who we like because all the others do the talking for us
Love is as fake as the braids in my hair
Non-existent and full of shit
But that non-existent feeling is what many people are ever so longing for and I being one of those people just don't know
But now I'm starting to see what the truth is
Maybe loving just isn't for me
There's loving your friends and family
But having what you call a soulmate is love in a whole nother dimension
A plane where love has a different meaning
Maybe that feeling is something I'll never feel again
Maybe it's something I feel around my friends
Or maybe it's just the depression talking
Maybe the anxiety has taken a toll on my mind like it does for the many other victims and this crime got way out of hand now there's no one to stop the chaos
I smell your lavender perfume and my head instantly starts to hurt and I guess you just don't understand how much strain you put on me
But then again it's probably my fault
I'm not good looking I'm not a dick
I'm not your average nigga whose just looking to score
I don't meet the standards of a stereotypical black man
So maybe that's why she said no
Maybe that's just the pent up anger talking
I drink my coffee black just like love drank my heart
Love is a bitch and we all want a piece of her
YOU ARE READING
Poetry is like numbers
PuisiA few small poems about how I've felt about myself and just life in general. I've felt isolated for quite a while and I thought now would be a good time to talk about it
