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It wasn't your fault

Edison's PoV

"All I wanted was you to be happy Alex, that's why I decided to let you go." Bullshit!

"You were wrong Lyn, I was happy, very happy when I got to be your boyfriend and you to be my girlfriend. Lyn, I was always been happy with what we have, with what we've shared, with what we've cherished together in our relationship, I was happy Lyn but why? Why did you choose them instead of us? Why did you choose to get hurt for others? Why, Lyn? I just don't understand why you choose them instead of me, when will you stop choosing others? When will the day come that you'll choose yourself for once in your life Lyn, I have always loved you for being who you really are but I guess my love wasn't enough to prove you that it's time for you to choose between them and yourself. I'm sorry if you thought I deserve someone else, someone better than you but Lyn you were already enough. You were more than enough." I can feel her being weak for once while I'm with her but I knew that she didn't want me to know she was weak. Stop pretending Lyn.

"Alex, I don't love you anymore, stop forcing yourself back again." she tried to break free but I hugged her tighter.

"You're lying, I know your lying, stop lying to me, Lyn."

"I'm not lying Alex, why would I lie? I don't have a reason to lie to you anymore since you weren't mine like before." I broke away from the hug and looked at her.

"Stop comparing the past to the present! Why do you always compare this day to the past Lyn? We can start a new one if you would like so that there's no need to compare everything in the present to the past." I see the sadness in her eyes but why?

"Alex, don't understand, we can't start a new one because I don't love you anymore, please accept the fact that I really don't. Stop lying to me and to yourself."

"I'm not the one lying, it's you who is lying to yourself, stop hiding from the truth and stop pretending that you're okay, that you don't love me anymore because I know that you still love me, Lyn!" I was weeping from what I have heard, it pains me to see the person I love to be not weak in front of others but if she's facing them the weak side shows up.

"I'm not lying Alex! I'm telling the whole truth-" I flip us over making me on top of her, I put my hand on her cheek and the other one on the side for support, I was caressing her cheek as tears suddenly drop from the corner of her eyes.

"I'm not lying, why don't you believe me." She was crying so hard that I remember all the memories we had, the memories we've gone through it, together.

Flashback

"Ed? What if we break up? What if I decided to break up with you?" You were looking through me, I felt you fading away little by little like ashes being wind away.

"Enough with the what if's, it will never happen okay? I won't let it."

"Ed, if I ever fade away from you as a couple like sand being carried by the stream of water, I would like to say sorry and no matter what happens I still love you and will always will. If I ever break up with you always remember that I did that for your happiness and for what is best for you, it's like a decision making if I'll fight for you or let you go." She was starting to cry and by that time I already tried to be ready for the worst and that is the day that we'll end.

"Don't ever think like that okay? We won't be a part, I won't let it, I can't lose someone who's as precious as you. I won't find anyone like you anymore cuz you're the only one left with that personality and characteristics, I won't let that go waste that I have to say 'Goodbye, My Love' to you." But that day came when you decided to leave me, loss, thinking of what's the real reason why you left me, why you decided to be apart from me when I knew that we can overcome anything as long as we are together.

End

"When will you stop Lyn? All this pretending, when will this ever end, I can't just stand from here and watch you from afar. I knew that when I met you, you were happy and you changed. I saw how you changed when we were together and I know that you also knew that I change ever since you came into my life, you saw how I change and I saw yours but Lyn why do you keep on pretending now? Live your life to the whole truth, Lyn, stop lying and stop pretending, I like the old you. I love the old you then the new you today Lyn." She pushed me to the side, I fell on my butt, she sat and brought her knees closer to her breast. Oh, Lyn what really happened to you. You're still as fragile as ever.

"Why don't you love the new me then? You made me be like this Alex, I never wanted this but I have to. I have to be like this because I want you to forget about me, everything about me that's why I became like this cold as ice, not kind, hard as a rock but when I'm with you I always became as soft as a feather, I always change to the old me. Alex, stop talking to me, stop making me hope, stop everything you're doing to me because It's killing me. Loving you is killing me, Alex." She ran to the bed and went under the bedding, I walk closer to the bed and sat nearby the closer to the bed.

"I won't love the new you because like you said you never wanted this, whatever stupidity you do I will never forget you and I won't stop. Loving me won't kill you, Lyn, it will only make your feelings stronger for me."

"Just go to sleep Alex, I just want to be...alone right now." I went back to the couch and sat down in an angle seat and looked at her covered with bedding and soft sobbing can be heard.

"Always remember that I'm here and will be here, beside you, waiting and loving you from afar," I whispered to myself, minutes later I saw her moving all over the bed that the bedding was already on the floor. I stand up and went closer to her, I put the bedding on her again but she suddenly holds my hand tight.

"Don't go." She whispered but I heard it very clear that's why I lay beside her and hugged her waist and she just... looked like an angel, a sweet little fallen angel from the sky who just loved me for who I am but I didn't notice how much it pains her to let me go even if she still loves me.

"I'm sorry that you have to go through something like this Lyn, I never thought that your love for me can put you to hate yourself. I'm sorry because I didn't say how you love me that you have to decide for us, that I let you also go, that I found someone else after the break up between you and me, I'm sorry for everything, Lyn." Tears were already running down my face that I put my face closer to her neck and hugged her more.

"It wasn't your fault that I'm like this Alex, it's okay, it was my mistake too, you don't have to take all my mistakes because it's okay. Besides, I saw how happy you were after we decided to part ways, just always remember that I... I love you." I froze when I heard her talk to me in her real voice, not the cold one but not the inclement either and I cried more. 

"I'm really sorry, Lyn." She just scoots closer to me and rubbed my back to calm me down, she really knew how to calm me down, silent occurs and minutes later I felt her sleeping already.

I'm sorry that I couldn't fight for the love we've built, cherish and shared together. 
The stars were the witness of our love and the sky was the witness of our love that had come to an end.
-Edison

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