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Mix Feelings

Edison's PoV
She's jealous and sad every time she sees me and Marie? But why? I thought she had already moved on since the day she comeback she was with another boy, her boyfriend. Heart? Why are you beating fast? Don't tell me you're falling for the same trick she pulled on you the last time she decided to come back to you. You should be beating for Marie since she's the one who was always there when Lyn wasn't around. What is this feeling really? Am I cheating on my feelings for Marie? No, can't do that.

LOVE❤💋:
We need to talk Marie

BABE❤💋:
Okay, meet me where you and Lyn first met.

I went to the location where I and Lyn first met as I was walking memories started to flashback in my mind.

Flashback
"Lyn, come over here!" I saw a young girl, small but a very cute one named Lyn Janey Own. The very first time I saw her my heart skipped a beat and that's where I knew I fell in love at first sight with this girl.

"Hello, Nisha!" She hugged Nisha my best friend too but her eyes were looking right at my eyes.

"Lyn, this is Alex Edison Rale, my best friend. I'll be leaving you in his hands for now since I have to go, my guardian is already here to fetch me. Don't worry I know Edison would take care of you for the time being." She nods like a little child asking if she wants candy.

"Hello Alex, I'm Lyn Janey Own, nice to meet you!" She reaches out for her hand that I gladly reach out too, her hand was soft like a feather that I don't want to let go anymore.

"Hi, Edison at your service nice to neet you Lyn. Just call me Edison, not Alex." Nish bid farewell and left me and Lyn near the gate waiting. But the waiting list for almost 1 hour so we decided to fall in line for the phone call while we were waiting for our turn we shared stories about ourselves and get to know each other in a short period of time. After we bid farewell I can't stop thinking about her, she was like the most precious and innocent thing in my whole life so I ask Nish what's her name in facebook.

Edison:
Nisha, what's Lyn name in facebook?

Nisha:
Why? Are you gonna stalk her account? You like her don't you? This is the very first time you ask about a girl's name on facebook after meeting almost all of my girl's best friends.

Edison:
I just want to be close to her more, nothing special.

Nish:
Hahahaha as if, well her name is Lyn Janey. Take care of her okay? She's a keep and a special one.

At first, I didn't understand what Nisha said but as time goes by I understand what she meant and it's true Lyn really is a keep and a special person.

End

"Hey Love, what's the problem?" Marie hugged me but why do I feel this feeling? Like I don't love her at all? She noticed that I look uncomfortable with the hug and decided to let go.

"What's bothering your mind love?"

"I need space." 3 words, same words she said to me.

I need space.

"Is that what you really want?" I just nod as a yes and she agreed that's why she left first. I stayed for a little more because memories started to come and a tear fell from my eye.

Flashback

"Do you remember this place, Babe?" She was hugging me like a person she doesn't want to let go.

"Of course Babe, we first met here. The start of our story was here and because of Nish."

"I'm thankful that Nisha got us to be friends and now look where we are, a happy and strong teen couple."

"I'm thankful that I met a cute, lovable, childish, beautiful girl named Lyn Janey Own and that is because of Nisha but I'm more thankful that you've accepted my confession 10 months ago and became my 1st girlfriend." We laugh, smiled, do childish things, blushed, ran together and most importantly we were happy and strong. Even if we were only a teen we can prove that age doesn't matter. What matters is what's on the inside and not the outside.

End

"Why are you crying?" Damn, I miss that voice very much.

"Should I be happy that I finally made you feel the feeling I have when you left me?"

"Yep, you finally made me felt it that's why I'm running to catch you but that impossible so I'll just let go, you're happy anyway." I wiped my tears and looked at her. Saw her looking at the sky while closed eyes and her hands are in the pockets of her jacket.

"It's bad to stare without permission you know that right?"

"I wasn't looking at you." I looked ahead

"And 811 isn't allowed to, they go to I don't care where."

"811?" She started walking away without even answering the question I said to her, I wonder what's 811. I didn't follow because I wanted time alone but my feet suddenly made its way towards her making her stop on her tracks.

"Do you have anything to say? I overheard your conversation, I didn't mean to listen but curiosity never kills the cat."

"Uhm nothing, you can go ahead." I moved to the left a little bit and she continues walking without looking back. Why am I feeling this way? I shouldn't be feeling this way, I'm with Marie and my heart shout beat for Marie and only Marie but why does my heartache as I watch Lyn walk away right now? What is happening to me? Is this what they call Mix Feelings for 2 persons? Did I really love Marie? Have I really moved on from Lyn?

"Hey, Alex! Watcha doing here bud?" RJ, my friend since grade 7.

"Oh, nothing just looking back at the happy memories I made with someone here."

"I get ya it's Lyn, isn't it? Hahaha you know Alex, Lyn never stopped loving you and I can see that every time I'm observing her. You see I'm courting her right now even if she said no to my question if I can court her that didn't stop me but I saw that she really still loves you and I know I can't love her like how she loves you now. I can try but I know I'll fail if you're still the one that her heart shouts."

"Observing? Courting? I don't get you RJ if you really love her why didn't you fight for that love?" He just laughs but I know that laugh is fake.

"If I really love her I'll let go of the feelings I have for her because I know that her happiness even if it saddens and pains her it was you, it had always been you, Alex. I just don't know why you never saw that she always looks at you from afar while I look at her from a near, she always go down just to see you and hoping that she can have a chance to talk to you but no she never had because she saw you happy with Marie. Lyn had been bothered ever since grade 8 started, I heard that she was always low in the exams and quizzes, every time she was being called she would just stand and seek for her best friends help in order for her to sit. You were always been in her mind and heart Alex."

'You were always been in her mind and heart Alex.' Argh! Why is that line stock in my head! That isn't true, that's a lie. A forever lie! I never crossed in her thoughts nor she had feelings for me. This had a big impact on my mind.

"Argh! Let me sleep! Stop messing up my feelings! I don't love you anymore!" Do I really don't or do I still do?

"Argh!!! Curse this feeling! Why!" My face was in the pillow and I'm shouting at it like a lunatic.

Why did you leave me when you love me? Why choose others than me, your lover? I had so many questions but I know this question can only be answered by HER.
-Edison

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Sorry for the wrong grammar and punctuation but I hope you'll continue on reading.

-Author