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Not Fine

3rd Person's PoV
Lyn and Edison's week had finally come to an end. Lyn went home from being discharged from the hospital and at night Edison went to Lyn's house.

"Just 10 seconds, promise." Edison went to hide behind the bushes were Lyn can be seen, back facing him.

"1" Lyn was talking to her cousin, Alexa, with a smile while Edison had started counting.

"2"

"3"

"4"

"5, please."

"6"

"7"

"8, just one look."

"9"

"...10" Edison looked from the ground, knowing that he needs to stop what he's doing, he walked away, little did he knew Lyn looked at where he was, smiling but he was already gone and the smile in Lyn's face fade.

Why do I feel like he was there before? Lyn thought, she went out of the house, to the gate and saw a boy walking away.

"Alex!" Lyn shouted making Edison stop from walking, looked back and was shocked to see her there, standing and looking at him.

How? Lyn... Do you still love me? Alex thought. Alex ran and hugged her tight.

"Why didn't you look? I was hoping, Lyn, I really was." Alex cried as Lyn just stood there, knowing what he meant to say but didn't say nor react.

"Nobody told you to hope Alex, you did it yourself. I didn't look because I don't want to look for I don't want you to hope anymore, to hope that we'll get back together." He broke from the hug and looked at me, broken, sad and feeling lost. I do still love you Ed, but I don't know if that love is enough, to fight for you even if it's already wrong.

"I didn't mean to hope Lyn, but you kept on giving me clues, hints, and signs for me to hope. I'm not telling you that it's your fault because of it's partially all my fault, I fall in love with my best friend, I courted you and you left because you loved me too much that you thought I'll be happy with someone else that's not you."

"Just go home, Alex." I walk away from him, to the gate but before I can even hold the gate he hugged me from behind. Don't be too soft on Ed, Lyn, you know you have to stop that. You can't continue on being soft on him especially when you know that he'll just play with your feelings like how he thought you did. Lyn thought

"Let me go, Alex, please, I'm begging you let me go." Lyn tried to unclasp his arms from hugging but every time she's doing it that Edison only tightens his hug until the rain dropped, they stand there while the rain was pouring, no words came out of their mouth, nothing but silences.

"I don't want to let you go anymore Lyn, I already did that before and I'll say the truth, I regret letting you go. I regret the moment you left my life and now that you're back I don't want to do the same mistake I did before and that was letting you go. I'm sorry for letting you go, Lyn, I... If only I fought for our love and didn't let you walk out of our relationship then maybe, just maybe we'll still be together by now, happy, can conquer any trials in life and maybe by now we have celebrated our very first anniversary but no, I let you walk out of our relationship that's why we are right here right now. Ever since you walk out of my life it was a mess, Lyn, my life had no more meaning, no more color, and no more source of happiness because you were my happiness, you were the colors of my world, you were the meaning that's why I kept on studying to keep up my grades because I wanted you to be with me. If my grades were low you'll break up with me and that's what you, me and my mother agreed about. We agreed that no matter what happens we'll be standing side by side but Lyn, what happened? We could have talked it out but you block me to all of our sources, We should have fixed it but you, you choose to let go without a proper fight. I became arrogant Lyn, I have you, I had dad, I had everything... then I lose dad and I made another mistake... And then I... lose you." Lyn elbowed his stomach making him let go, she closes the gate and runs upstairs, close the door and leaned on. She cried softly, leaning and Edison just stood outside, crying too, knowing that he made another mistake by letting her go. I'm so sorry Lyn if you ever thought I let go but I really didn't, I was in a relationship before too but my feelings for you really didn't fade. My heart never change the way you kept on making me felt before, the butterflies in my stomach, my palms sweating, my forehead sweating a lot, feeling nervous every time you're beside me, blush often, everything you had made me felt it's still the same Lyn, but I don't know anymore if you still feel the same way I do right now. Edison thought, he walked away crying while the rain is pouring, thinking about how to move on from his very 1st girlfriend. Lyn broke his heart not only by once but many times that he can't count anymore, but the break up broke his heart more than all of what Lyn had done. All he did was to love her endlessly till maybe she got loathe.

Following Day

"Lyn!" Daine barged in Lyn's room making Lyn woke up and fall on her bed.

"Daine! You seriously need to knock before barging in someone's room!"

"ALEX EDISON F. RALE and RJ P. BYRD ARE OUTSIDE OUR HOUSE!" Lyn suddenly sits up straight and bustles out of the room to the gate, from there she saw her ex-lover, Alex, singing while holding McDonalds and flowers, with RJ strumming the guitar. Alex happened to sing the song he had written for me, Not Fine.

I know, you are no longer mine
But I can't stop myself from being not fine
All I wanted was to see you smile
Like we use to before when we're still in line.

Seeing you're beautiful smile
Was enough to heal a heart so fragile
All I wanted was to walk with you down the aisle
Or run a million-mile just to have you back to me

Saying our vows in front of each other as we cry,
As tears of happiness filled our eyes
You'll be mine and I'll be yours,
Don't let me out of you hearts doors

I've been a stranger ever since we fell apart,
I wonder if my mind just leaves out the bad part
Remembering your eyes like an art
How you'd stuck like a dart, aiming for my unfazed heart

You were never been to blame,
I know we didn't make sense,
All I know is a newfound grace
All my days, I'll know your face

Flashback

"Do you like it?" Edison asked Lyn who was beside him, looking at him, smiling that he had finally written his 1st song and was dedicated to her.

"Like it? I love it, Babe, I really do, why don't you record it?"

"I don't want to record it because I want you to only hear it." Lyn hugged Edison and he hugged back.

End

"Alex, what are you doing here?"

"Isn't it obvious? I'm here to court you again, from Stage 1: Serenade and today are the days that I'll be starting to make you mine again." Lyn was shocked to see him and was also embarrassed about what she is wearing, pajamas.

"And the McDonalds? That for me?"

"Ah yes, this is for you since I knew that you'll be waking up by like hmm 10 I decided to bring you breakfast and same with your family. So shall we?"

"Shall we what?"

"Still the same as ever, what I meant to say is shall we eat?" Lyn just nods and Edison and RJ went inside the house. They ate in silence, nothing but munch was heard, minutes later they all finished. Alex and RJ went out of the house.

Our relationship may have been burnt down to tatters but its embers are still blistering inside my heart.
-Edison

I can't say that I miss you because I haven't begun getting over you.
-Lyn

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Special thanks to nadz_915 for helping me.
Sorry for the wrong grammar and punctuation but I hope you'll continue reading.

-Author