Stains Of The Past (Ateez, Woosan)

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San was running to somewhere he doesn't know where but he needed to get away from Woo. He couldn't believe that he hugged him! But his heart was beating so fast, his face has hot, and he has this weird feeling in his stomach. He didn't like this feeling at all, he didn't know how to feel nor did he want to feel this feeling.

San ran into he legs gave out, when he looked up he saw that he was at his old house, across the street was Woo's house. And elderly couple was looking out the window at San who finally caught his breath and his legs were finally able to stand up without falling back on the ground.

San looked at the elderly couple with a desperate face that caused the elderly woman to come out and walk to him with a concerned face "Sweetie are okay?" She asked offering her hand to him, San accepted her hand not trying to make another person hate him "I-I don't know ma'am, I t-think so, I don't know what this f-feeling is" San admitted to the eldarly woman.

The eldary woman helped San of the ground "come on in sweetie, I'll make you some tea" she said bring San inside the house. All the memories hit San hard, All the smiles, laughs, hugs, cires, shouting, the goods, the bads, all of them. Making the boy overwhelmed with the feelings that he hasn't felt in a long time. He felt something on his hands he looked down and saw that he was crying, he hasn't cried in a long time. It felt weird and strange to San.

He didn't like this feeling of being weak and vulnerable at this moment. He likes to be in charge, strong, emotionless, but it's the complete opposite. Now he crying in his old house where he thought stupid memories that didn't care about, is the reason why he is crying after so long of being numb from emotions.

The elderly woman walked back in the room with some tea and some tissues, "here you go sweetie, have some black iced tea,and tell me what's bothering you" she sat down next to him with a cup of tea for him, San took the cup of tea but he didn't say he was scared that the woman would be disgusted by him and would kick him out if he told her what was really wrong with him.

"Sweetie it's okay, you can tell me what's wrong, I want to help you," she said, putting her hand on his back looking at him with empathy in here eyes, San looked at her in the eyes, He felt safe around her "O-Okay.. Well I don't know what is wrong with me.. I can't feel anything... but since I hugged him.. I felt something like a burst of energy came out of my chest.. But I got scared and ran away from him..." San said hugging the woman tightly just letting his cries out the elderly woman just ran circles on his back and let him just let out all of his emotions.

After what felt like years of crying, San looked up at the elderly with red puffy eyes. He hasn't cried in over two years san forgot how crying makes people exhausted, his eyes were droopy "Sweetie let me take you home, you can come over tomorrow and we can talk about this okay?" She said cupping her hand against his puffy cheeks.

San nodded softly feeling like he was a burden to the eldery woman and her husband "o-okay.. I'm sorry ma'am I never asked for your name?" he said looking down at his feet "I'm Jennie sweetie and my husband over there, his name is Jin, what's your name?" She said walking to the door "Choi San ma'am" he said following Jennie to the door.

When San and Jennie walked out the door San saw Woo limping towards his house with a bloody nose and what looked like his foot was hurt. San followed Woo with his eyes watching him walk into the place that he called his home.

Jennie saw San watch Woo into his house "You know Woo? He's a very very interesting boy, always so quiet but so nice, I wonder if he is okay sometimes" Jennie said with a sad but guante smile, All San could do was nod softly "yeah, um we go to school together but we don't talk much" He felt bad lying to Jennie but he couldn't let her find out the truth well not yet at least.

The drive to San's house was quite, San didn't mind the silence but now he is back to being numb again, which brought San into deep thoughts.

"San... can I tell you something...." The young teenage Woo asked looking at his best friend while his other friends are looking at him with disgust in their eyes "What do you want Woo we kinda have stuff to do" San asked with annoyance in his voice as Woo looks at the ground "Um... can it be in private...please" Woo asked softly "no it can't just fucking say it pussy" San said making Woo look at him "I-I-I'm....gay... and-" "what the fuck! You're a fucking faggot! Get away from me you disgusting fairy!" San said pushing Woo to the ground as his friends started to beat the shit out of him "P-please s-stop..." Woo pleaded

"San? San? Sweetie" San thoughts quickly went away "we're here sweetie" San look out the window to see the empty place he called the "loving" home "thank you, ma'am, for everything, I'll see you later" San said getting out the car and walking to his house.

Back at Woo's house was the same as always for Woo, classics beatings by his parents.

Woo was holding his stomach as his sobs and pleads were not being heard through his parents ears, all they wanted to hear their son cry in pain "m-mom a-ah! D-dad please A-ah! Stop please" Woo cried covering his head from his dad stomping on his hands "shut up you little bitch and fucking take your beating!" Woo's angered father screamed.

Three long hours of hell and back for Woo was finally over but the mess was going to be impossible for him to clean up, there's so much blood, sweat, and tears from Woo and not to mention the glass and other things to use to beat Woo to he blacked out, now he's on ground just coughing and crying quietly.

All Woo could think of is when San hugged him, how he felt safe in ihs arms, the way they wrapped around his waist and the warmth of his body on his made him feel like he could face the whole world but sadly that moment didn't last that long. But still Woo smiled softly at the fact that San hugged him.

Woo thought to himself, "Am I crazy for being in love with the person who hates me the most?"