Stains Of The Past (Ateez, Woosan)

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Woo kept his head on San's chest not wanting to move or forget the feeling of his chest against his head, the feeling of laying/cuddling with the person you love, even though San doesn't love him back the same way Woo loves him.

Woo could feel his eyes starts to slowly close, not wanting to move from their position Woo just stayed there letting his eyes close slowly being consumed by the darkness, a midnight sky with no shine. The only thing running through his head was the idea of San loving him... not as a brother, so much more than that... sadly the thought will only stay as a thought and never would come true.

San was still awake thinking about what was happening with his chest right now. It was beating quickly, almost beating out of his chest. The way his mind was racing with quick thoughts almost to the point where he couldn't process what was happening in his own mind, but this time it was different than the demons of his mind. This time they were was different, they were happy thoughts.

San couldn't understand why he was always so happy when Woo was around him. He just thought that since they were childhood friends that he was just very close "yeah maybe that what is" San thought to himself. But he knew that was wrong but he didn't want to believe that he could be in love with another male. It couldn't happen and it will never happen.

San and Woo were like that for a few hours, they both were asleep keeping each other close. Both boys' hearts were beating fast they were matching up with each other like the stars lining up together.

San was the first one to wake up, his mind was foggy, and his head was throbbing "Ugh.. what the?" when he looked down he remembered that Woo and him were cuddling on a hospital bed. He didn't mind it, I mean if Woo tried to kill himself he would be right where he was, scared and worried.

Without knowing he was running his fingers through Woo's soft silver hair sitting there in comfortable silence, the only noises were Woo's soft snores leaving his soft kisses able lips partly apart. San wasn't going to lie, at that moment he was going to kiss him but his mind was racing to fast but without knowing his body and his mind were not working together, then it happened. San kissed Woo, softly and innocently on his lips.

Woo was awake but he didn't open his eyes but his heart was racing. He couldn't believe it, San was fucking kissing him! On the lips! This means he didn't just see him as a friend or a brother! He might like him! 'Oh my fucking god! He's kissing me!' Woo thought to himself

San slowly moved back as his own heart was beating fast, the way Woo looked. He was like sleeping beauty, and San was the prince that saved her from her slumber. Only this time, Woo wasn't under a curse, or asleep. San woke him up from the slumber with a small innocent kiss. The kiss meant more to both of them. Filled with uncovered emotions that each boy didn't know they had, was this love? Or was it hormones and curiosity?

Woo pretended to wake up as he opened his eyes to see San's chocolate brown eyes sparkle a bit "eh? What time is it Sannie?" Woo asked rubbing his eyes a bit only to hide his blushing cheeks "U-uh I don't know" San said rubbing the back of his neck looking away from Woo with redness on his cheeks.

Woo smiled softly and sat up,the coolness of the air made him shiver and he almost wanted to lay back down and feel San's warmth that was radiating off his body but he had to get up because he did leave the house without telling his father, and that's a huge mistake for Woo, but he could care less at this moment his friend is in the hospital and he needs somebody there with him.

His parents could wait, it's not like they care about him anyway, so why go home right away. San was looking at Woo subconstetly letting his fantasy run through his head.

Woo was finally calm down a bit, he couldn't help but smile at the fact he was just kissed for the first time, by San! His heart was still beating fast and his stomach had butterflies rushing around. He couldn't remember when he felt this way, Its been forever since he felt like this. The last time Woo felt like this was in middle school, right after San and Woo just got done hanging out, they were hugging tightly. San was crying loudly on Woo's shoulder.

"Why! Why don't they love me Woo! It's my birthday and they didn't even call me! Nobody fucking loves me!" The small blond hair cried on his friends shoulder, "They love you, I love you San, don't say that nobody loves you San" Woo said holding his friend close to him as he ran his finger through his hair.

San looked over at his friend after he heard those words left his mouth and just looked in his eyes seeing how the brown orbs sparkled like the stars at night. He wounder why his friend was so nice to him, why he cared about him, and why he loved him. They were both boys, how can a boy love another boy? San kept wondering ll these different thoughts but was cut off when he felt something on his cheek, Woo's hand.

Woo's heart was beating so fast he thought he was having a heart attack. He knew he liked San, but he didn't know he felt this way with him. He was in love with his bestfriend....

It been forever since Woo has felt that spark in his heart, the way San made him feel was impossible for Woo to put into words. It was like San was his life sorce, his oxygen, his everything. But sadly he wanted to ask San if he liked him but was to scared, scared of being left alone, forgotten. He couldn't let that happen again. He wasn't going to let that happen again. No matter what it cost.