Stains Of The Past (Ateez, Woosan)

10(trigger warning)

The walk for San felt like it was ten years his mind couldn't think straight. His thoughts were consuming him whole. Fear, anger, sadness, disappointment were filling him whole. It was like a glass of water being overfilled with water only to be spilled out but it keeps attempting to hold more water. Eventually that glass just spills over and becomes empty again, only to be filled with more water. 

San felt this sudden urge to go back to Woo and take him away from the monster he lives with but that's hypocritical of him to think like that when he did just has bad to him if even possible worse. 

But he knew it would only make things worse for him. The beating will get worse. He knows how a person like his father thinks like because he did it to, only hit Woo where nobody could see. And leaving so many bruises in his mind haunting the boy every day and night of his life making the boy suffer even after the beatings. 

San felt even worse of what he did to the poor boy, they might caused Woo pain but they were also stain of his past as well. The stains where only the fact that he couldn't feel anything so he made others feel what he wished his felt, sadness or depression for the world and for himself.

Soon enough San approached the empty, soulless house. The place that eats him alive and let the inner demons win the game. His mind is the game. His thoughts were the movements of the character. His words were extra points. His whole life was a game to the demons. The longer he lives the harder the level. There's only one way out of the game, Death. 

Once he walked up to the door, he felt his mind og dark, it was like each time he was away from Woo he went back to his emotionless    

emotionless freak who wanted the world to burn and suffer just like he was. His emotions were gone, his feeling in his chest was gone. Mostly his mind was gone. It was empty slowly filling up with dark, and brutal thoughts. It was consuming his mind. The ways he could make people hurt and feel what he was feeling, the emptiness and pure anger at the world and the people in it.

Once he walked in the house he saw that no body was still not home "Heh, fucking bitch not even home, shocker" he said walking into his "parents" room knowing damn well that they have some new stuff that he never dare to touch again into now.

The white powdery substance in a bag was calling Sans name. He took the bag and walked to the bathroom. This wasn't new to San he's done this the day he told Woo to jump, right before school actually, making him think the craziest things, all because his brain was sizzling like an egg on a frying pan.

Yes, San is a relapsing drug and alcoholic, he's been off and on all this time. But the white substance only comes around when he can't deal with his life anymore, wanting his brain to sizzle out of brain cells. So he could finally become the empty person that he was. To finally become his father...

When he walked in the bathroom he knew all too well how this would end, so he always did what he did, call someone just in case but this was a different person, Woo. he apologized for everything again. It was like he was saying goodbye for good. Then he did what he did, chop up the substance and consumed the substance and laying back letting it do its thing.

Woo was half asleep when he heard his phone buzz which caused him to groan softly but he moved his aching body and looked at the notification that was on San's old Instagram "Hey.. Woo.. it's me San, I wanted to say I'm sorry... hopefully when you read this my mind will be sizzled out and I'll be gone from this world... the demons have won the game.. I can't continue on.. I'm sorry.. Please forgive me..." Woo's eyes watered and widen so fast he didn't realized that he was running downstairs not caring if his father saw him.

He needed no had to get to San's house... but the thing was that he didn't know where San news's house was, "Fuck! Oh god please be okay San" he said out loud pulling out his phone trying to call him on Instagram but no answer "Shit! God damn it San answer!" Woo screamed with tears going down his face each time San didn't answer only made Woo's heartbeat quicken and his mind was going to the worst possible things a person could imagine.

After about ten tries San picked up "y-yes?" he said shivering as his body was finally going through the worst stages of an overdose "where do you live San!?" Woo pleaded loudly "why...." Is all that San said feeling his body to get more sweaty from shivering so much "Because I fucking care about you San! I made a promise to help and stay with you!" Woo said with a broken sob leaving his mouth "...by the high school... three streets down it's the first house on the right..." San said before ending the call.

Woo ran as fast as his aching body would let him go, he didn't care that his body was screaming for him to stop, he needs to get to San before he losses him again or for good. He can't lose him he would go crazy if he lost San again, he wouldn't be able to live knowing he couldn't help him.

Once he ran to the house he ran inside not caring if someone saw him, all that mattered was San, only San. he looked everywhere he thought he would be "San! Where are you!" Woo screamed in the hall. He was in a race against time, time to save the person he loved.

Woo heard a loud thud in the bathroom. His heart was now out of his chest, he rushed to the door but it was locked. "Fuck fuck! No!" he screamed trying to forcefully open the door but it wouldn't budge causing him to cry harder and start kicking the door.

When he opened the door his whole world stopped. There he was, San. On the ground foaming out of his mouth and going pale. It was like he was dreaming, but it was the reality of this could hearted world. Woo quickly ran to him putting him to his side so he wouldn't choke on the foam he quickly dialed 911.

"911 what's-" "Please! Come quick, m-my best friend had overdosed! Please send help!" Woo cut of the operator "okay, honey get your friend to the side and hold his head, I'm sending help now, do you know what he taken?" the operator said sending ambulance and police the address "n-no! Please send help... I love him! I-I can't lose him" He said letting a sob out holding San close to him scared of losing him.

"There on there way sweetie, I promise that you won't lose him okay, just make sure they can get to you guys okay" The operator said in a soothing voice "p-promise?" Woo said with a broken voice "I promise sweetie" Woo nodded even though the lady couldn't see. "Up here! Oh god he's right here" Woo said throwing his phone has he saw that the ambulance was there.

They rushed up and put San on the stretcher and started to pump his stomach as they went down the stairs. Woo quickly followed them down into the ambulance. Woo held onto San's hand "please don't leave me... not again.. ''I need you.." Woo said with tears that blurred his vision but he kissed San's hand softly "I need you.."