Stains Of The Past (Ateez, Woosan)

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"Are you Woo?" A doctor said walking up to the sleepy boy who had red puffy eyes "uh? Yes! I'm Woo, is he okay? Please tell me he is okay!" Woo said quickly standing up from the chair quickly "Yes, he's okay, his blood stream is being washed out right now, he's very lucky to be alive right now, but I have to ask, what's your relationship with my patient?" Woo blushed softly wanting to say boy- "best friend, I'm his best friend" he said softly

Looking at floor "well, do you have anyway of getting ahold his parents?"

That's when it hit Woo, San's parents. They haven't been notified of their son's condition or whereabouts, "I'm sorry ma'am, I don't know his parents numbers or where they are" Woo said sighing at the ground "Well when we get ahold of them we'll tell you, You may go see him, warning you he's kind of delusional  at the moment so if he says anything he probably doesn't mean it"

Woo nodded "thank you ma'am, for saving him" The woman smiled and nodded as Woo walked away. Now here's the hard part, going to see San in the condition that the doctors have him in. As Woo made it to San's room he couldn't help but feel the rush of guilt and fear coming to him.

When he walked into the room all the emotions flew out. Sadness, anger, love, hate, scared. All of them made Woo realize that he wanted no NEEDED San in his life. Romantically or not, he didn't care. Seeing San hooked up to wires and a heart monitor made him feel those ways.

"W-Woo?.. Is that you?" a softly but breaky voice said calling out for the boy who was just standing there with tears forming in his eyes "S-Sannie?" Woo said holding back the sob that is slowly eating his throat alive "Y-Yes it's S-Sannie... come here p-please" San said patting the bed with his arm that wasn't hooked up to IV's looking at him the best he could, his vison was still a blur to him but he knew that Woo was there just by the atmosphere around him. The soft, calming, and the loving feeling in the air. San has finally realized what he did not only to him, but also to Woo. he made him worry and cry over him, again. 

Woo walked over and sat on the spot that San patted he just sat there until he was pushed down his head was on a hard surface. It took a few seconds to realize that his head was on San's chest. His face went red, "I-I'm sorry Woo.. again.." San whispered into Woo's head "I-I'm so so sorry.. I made you w-worry about me.. C-cry again because of me.." Woo felt something wet on his skin "Sannie? Are you crying?" Woo asked looking up from his chest to see that San was in fact crying.

 "Sannie please don't cry, its okay, as long as you're alive and here, I forgive you, but please never leave me again.. I can't lose you again.. I forgive you" Woo said wiping the tears on San's face with his thumb "I-I'm so fucking sorry Woo... I made your life a living hell... more than that.. I made your life so much harder... your father abuses you... I bullied you... made you try to kill yourself.. I-I don't belong to be in your life... I make everything so much more worse,, I-I" "Shh. San, you do not make me life a living hell, you didn't make it worse for me. You helped me more than you know. Your the reason why I'm still alive, breathing. If you were not in my life I would have killed myself a long time ago, your my guardian angel." Woo said smiling softly cupping San's cheek with his hand. 

San didn't know why he was feeling like the way he was. His chest was tight, his heart was beating so fast,his stomach felt like there were butterflies in his stomach when Woo said those words to him. He didn't know this feeling he wasn't scared, but he was happy. He felt genuinely happy. He couldn't explain it. But woo words brought joy and happiness to him.

"Thank you San, for being in my life, the source of happiness into my twisted life, Thank you for being the first person who cared about me.. Who lov- um I mean cared about me Woo quickly said almost saying that San loved him. He probably doesn't but Woo almost exposed himself with his feelings. That would be the thing that San would run away from "I love you Woo.." San said softly Woo's heart rate went so fast he couldn't believe it San loved him!

"I always have... It just took me to realize that I do... All the feelings you give me.. Your like my little brother... And I'm sorry it took me this long to realize it.." Woo then felt a sharp pain in his chest... he didn't love him the way he thought he did... "I-I love you too San" Woo said softly holding back the tears in his eyes. How could a straight person fall in love with another male.. I guess it's better than not having San in his life...