His Alpha✔️✔️

9. LATE

Taehyung's

"Seokjin, wake up! Hey! This is a prank right? You're still alive! Don't do this! Wake up!"

I don't care if I looked like a crazy man right now, but he needs to wake up he can't die just like that. He needs to breathe again.

I turned to the doctor to ask him the truth. "Tell me you're just playing a sick joke with me, right? He's not dead!"

"I'm sorry, I suppose he's your mate, right? But I can't do anything about it. He's dead. It's not an ordinary dagger, it's silver, you know we, werewolves are weak when it comes to silver, our body burns by the touch of it. He's so lucky he made it here, if it's an ordinary wolf he would die the second that dagger touched his heart. I'm sorry for your loss, but we can't do anything about it." He tapped my shoulders and left me standing there not knowing what to do.

So, Seokjin is gone? No more Omega in my life? No more fag every morning, right? But why does it feel wrong when he's gone? I thought I wanted this? I thought I wished him to die, but why do I feel suddenly so empty?

The door opened and a nurse came in.

"Mr. Kim? The doctor sent me to check on you, I know you have lost your mate and it will be very painful for you and your wolf, there is no cure for the pain that will feel like you're ripping in two every full moon but the doctor suggested that you should stay in the room where your Omega's scent is present to calm you in the first months, and after that, maybe you can handle the pain well. I really feel sorry for you that you have to go through this.

And I hate to break it to you, but we only have one mate they are the half of us, when they die, half of us die with them that's the reason why we feel pain whenever they are hurt or in pain, to alert us that they needs us, I suppose a great danger you have faced for you to fail to protect him."

I never did protected him. I never did.

I never know a thing about mates and my connection to him. So, all this pain means it's all Seokjin's pain? Every night and day, it never faltered, it means he's always in pain?

What have I done?

All memories of me and him is playing vividly in my mind, how I throw him inside his room when he pleaded that he doesn't want to go because he's afraid but I never paid attention to him. The first night in my house when he was abused, his eyes pleading but I thought he was enjoying what those Alphas do. And me, I made everything worse, how I rub it to his face that no one's going to love him and that I will never help him in his heat silently wishing for his death every time.

V is right I'm the worst mate alive. I can never forget how Seokjin looked like whenever I close my eyes as his life was being taken away from him. How he said that after he dies, we will all be happy.

I will never forget his last words "Too Late". He's right I'm way too late. I can never redeem myself. I can never be a better person for Seokjin and make up what I've done.

Why did he have to die to wake me up and knock some sense into me? I know I don't love him. Not yet, I don't even know if I will get there, he's already gone and I can't do anything about it. If I can turn back time, I would change everything and protect him.

"I'm sorry, Seokjin, I'm way too late. I'm sorry."

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"Taehyung! What happened? What is Seokjin doing in this raft?" Father came rushing as soon as he saw me here in the seaside.

My father didn't know what happened to Seokjin not until today. I never had the strength to tell anyone that I lost my mate. Every time I think of it it brings back all the pain and guilt in my body and today is the day that I'll let them go. He will now set off to the sea and his ashes will be one with nature, to where he belongs, to where he will be happy, to be finally happy.

"ANSWER ME!" He growled at me and grabbed my shirt. "What happened to him?"

"He ki-killed himself." My tears won't ever stop falling as soon as I said those words. I know I'm the one who is to blame for his death, only me, no one else.

"No! No this can't be! Tell me you're lying!" He was shaking tremendously and he looked so scared at the thought of Seokjin dying.

"I wish I was, father. I wish I was."

He looked stunned at what I told him and he started wailing in pain and rushed to Seokjin's side holding him as if he was also robbed out of the life he has. He kept mumbling words but one word struck me the most.

"My son! No! This can't be!"

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I can't keep my word sorry, I will be updating this even if it's Wednesday.

Is it weird? I listen to Hope World while writing, the music doesn't fit with the words I express LoL :P