Spider-Man | seaycee |

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Kaycees POV

"Do we know if she had family?"

I look over at tony, feeling a lump suddenly form in my throat. We were out on the dock above the lake, thinking about Nat. "Yeah, us." Steve replies and I bury my head in my hands.

"What? What are you doing?" Thor asks and I frown as I look up at him, standing up near tony. "Just asked him a question." Tony answers. "Yeah no your acting like she's dead. Why are we acting like she's dead? We have the stones, right? As long as we have the stones Cap, we can bring her back, isn't that right so stop this shit. We're the avengers, get it together." Thor says, making me about to slap him.

"Can't get her back." Clint says and I look over to him. "W-what is he.. wh-wha-." But Clint cuts him off. "It can't be undone. It can't." I hear the slight break in his voice, my chest tightens.

Then I hear Thor laugh.

Fucking laugh.

"Look, I'm sorry. No offence, but your a very earthly being, okay? And we're talking about space magic. And "can't" seems very definitive, don't ya think?" Thor looks straight at Clint and I feel like kneeing him in the balls right now.

"Yeah look, I know I'm way outside of my pay grade here, but she still isn't here is she?" Clint asks directly at Thor. "No, that's my point." He replies and my head falls back down onto my hands again.

"It can't, be undone." Clint repeats. "Or that's at least what the red, floating guy had to say. Maybe you wanna go talk to him okay?! Go grab your hammer and you go fly and talk to him!" Clint shouts, pointing towards Thor.

"Look, Clin-."

"JUST STOP!" I shout as I cut him off.

"Don't you get it Thor. What can't you get through your fucking brain. She's gone. Just like Gamora. Just like everyone else." I shout as I start to push him.

"Stop making it hurt even worse. Just stop trying to say she's gonna come back when she isn't!" I push him again. I start to feel someone's arms holding me back but I push them off me. "Just stop!" I shout, pushing him again.

I feel electricity pulse through my veins and they spark onto him. "You make everything worse! I had a normal life. Now I'm scared that one time, I'll rage out and kill someone! I'm fucking scared of myself. And I blame myself for letting Thanos take everyone away! So stop making me hurt more then I already am!" I shout one more time, pushing him harder.

I feel bigger hands pull me away from him, knowing it's Banner. I try and push him away but I can't. My knees give up as I stumble down, feeling all the emotions I've bottled up for years spill out. I'm leaning onto banners body as I sob, pulling my knees up to my chest.

"She's gone. She broke her promise. They both broke their promises."

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I watch slowly as the stones are being placed on an Ironman Gauntlet. It's silent, my heart pounding. The stones fit perfectly in place and I stare at it.

"Boom!"

I jump a little and take a breath when I realise it was rocket. "I really hate you." I mumble and he starts laughing. "Little Rat." I mumble and he frowns. "I'm not a rat!" He shouts back. "I'm not a rat!" I impersonate his voice and he rolls his eyes.

We take the glove out, and rocket examines the gloves before looking up at tony. "It's ready. The question is, who's gonna snap their freakin fingers." He says and I'm not surprised when I see Thor stand up.