Deamon within

~2~ My demon

"NO, I'm asleep, I'm dead,  I'm. .great I'm answering a not existing voice". I look around, still nobody to be seen. I shake my head another time, close my eyes open them again, run back to the water to see my reflection. I sigh..

"Still the same huh? Look you first need to calm down before it disappears, you need to control your emotions"

Yup, I'm crazy and insane. .but. ..my only option is to talk to... uhh...my imagination?, I think to myself. "Control my emotions? CALM DOWN?! I don't care what you are or whatever is saying this or how insane I am literally answering a non existing voice, but I just got accused of killing people, setting two buildings on fire, of the dead of my own little sister!", I start to cry harder. "Ouuuchh", it hurts so bad... I don't even wanna look in the water, I just suppose the skin around my eyes must be burning too.

"It'll only hurt more if you keep crying, you're only 360 years old, nobody expects that you can control these things already. I'm sorry if I scared you I didn't mean to, although it's kinda my nature to scare others"

"Uhhh...I ain't 360 years old, that's impossible, I just turned 18, like..I turned 18 today, or actually I'll be officially 18 in a few hours.." I look at my phone 8.34pm, Thursday the 12th.. at exactly 12am, Friday the 13th, I'll be 18. We were supposed to celebrate it today but.. but they're gone, I think. "I'm 18, and my little sister Sophie, is.., was.. 12. So I don't know what you - I am thinking or talking about, but this is fake, some messed up nightmare", why am I talking to this voice.

"You're 360, in my years. And what do you mean sister, she was just a mortal one. Don't you realize you weren't even their family? Gawd you didn't even have the same last name. Ava Deamon.. Ava is a name which literally was devided from the word chavvâh, meaning breathing or the living one in Hebrew, Deamon ain't that hard it means demon in Latin. Your name spells out the living demon Ava"

"What.."

"You're awake, you started the fire, you started the fire with all your uncontrolled emotions, it was a hellfire, and it was AWESOME. Rather unfortunate you can't remember yet, but don't worry you will remember just like I do"

"I... I killed them? I started the fire? But how..I mean. .I got hurt and I don't remember doing anything or having uncontrolled emotions. Certainly not the first time in my house. And not my family? I got..Did I get born there? They were my parents right, were they?" I ask, I don't know what to do anymore.

Things start to twist and turn around me. I  killed Sophie, I killed my?  My what are they? Are they my parents?  I burned down a, a hospital? O my god, this can't be no I'm not awake. Yes I am awake.. no..

I can't keep standing anymore. I feel pain on my skin from my tears, I feel myself  losing my balance. Before I even can do anything else, before I hit the ground things turn black.

"Ow Ava, living demon.. sleep well"