Deamon within

~10~ Own darkness (Ava POV)

I'm just sitting here in this place, I don't know where I am. It's all dark around me I only see black, neverending darkness. I'm just crying not knowing what to do, I only know the bleeding didn't stop and I felt dizzy.. maybe I really died, maybe this is what being dead is like when you've done such bad things as I did, as killing..

After a few hours I decide to try or I can walk around, it's scary, it's completely silent here, and you don't see or there even is something like a wall which barricades this place. I need to find out what this is. I get up to my feet and start walking, my speed changes to jogging slowly until I'm running around the place hitting my arms around me. It seems like hours and the silence makes me go crazy.

I wish I wasn't alone..but I deserve to be alone. I let myself fall down to the floor again and sit down hugging my own knees. Maybe if I just would've been normal..

If I would've been normal, I now would have walked back from school towards the high school Sophie was attending to. I would have waited for her to come out and walked down the road home together and she would have made me feel better..

*Flashback*

The bell rung, we're allowed to go home. Finally! I run down the stairs towards my locker to get my jacket out. It's cold outside, last night a lot of snow fell.

"Freak!", I hear someone calling behind my back. It's Lucem. He always likes it to tease me, I run towards my locker and fastly get my jacket out. I think I outran him but when I step outside he pushes me in the snow. Ouch.. my ankle twisted a little. "Go away Lucem", I say.

"I know what you are, freak. You should just die.., you should have died long ago", he says before he walks off.

I walk away and head towards Sophie's school. "Heeeyyyyy Avaaa", she runs happily towards me when I walk down the road. "Hii Sophie", I try to sound happy.

We walk towards our house together, or Sophie more is jumping cheerfully and I'm dragging my feet. I listen to her little stories about how she and Nina decided to have a sleepover party this weekend, they want to go play in the snow and watch movies with hot chocolate afterwards.

"Sounds fun, I think mom will let you and else I'll talk with her", I smile, I just want her to be happy. She smiles back and suddenly jumps towards me. I didn't expect it so we both fall in the snow laughing. "You're the best sister in the whole world!", she chuckles.

*End flashback*

I really miss these days, why can't I just wake up from this nightmare?

I think about that day, her smile made me feel so much better after Lucem said... WAIT. *I know what you are, freak. You should just die.., you should've died long ago* The line Lucem said repeats in my mind. Maybe, maybe it's coincidence, but what if he really knew? Did he know more about me, how much and how? I didn't know myself, but, the way he always said it, and that I should've died long ago. It would fit with what the keeper told me.

"HELP ME!, get me out!!!!", I start calling out again. I need to figure this out, I need to somehow find out or Lucem knew or not.

I get up and start running again, one feet then the other. One straight line, if I make corners I'll never find out or this place is ending somewhere.

Still nothing.. then I trip and when I throw out my arms to catch myself, I feel something in front of me. A dark grey shaded figure is standing in front of me, it catched me. If it wouldn't have, I possibly wouldn't even have noticed it being there due the dark.

"Hello, me", it says with my voice. I look up and look towards the dark figure to meet, my own eyes...