Deamon within

~9~ Locked in

This is it, it's over. They'll shut me behind bars. They'll hurt me, put tests on me.
I sit with two handcuffs on and chains wrapped around my body. Three hours ago, I still was standing by little Sophie her grave. Telling her goodbye.. and now, now I'm caught.

I hear two men coming towards the little room I'm in. "Monster, you ain't getting to eat anything today", as they throw shatters glass towards me which are cutting in my skin.

"No, no please don't it hurts!", I cry. "LET ME GO". It can't end like this it can't, no, no. I keep crying as the flames burn my skin.

"Ava, Ava wake up!"

"Ava?", someone carefully shakes my shoulders. I open my eyes, it was a nightmare.. I'm shaking and my skin is all glowing, I see a big burning spot on my pillow. I cried in my sleep.

"Please don't look at me..", I wisper ashamed. I sit up looking towards the ground, I don't want the keeper to see me like this. I'm feeling so weak. I trust him, but I actually just need a friend. Someone of my age, someone to talk to, have fun with, actually Sophie used to be that person in my life. Even though she was a few years younger, we were so close and shared our feelings with each other, we went for fun things like swimming or climbing trees.. now I've no one like that anymore.

"Don't think like that, there are people here for you, there are even others like you, bisouled once"

"Well great my thoughts get just spoken out when I don't want em to be", I say putting an annoyed face on.

"Ow come on, don't complain. If you don't believe me we can go to our world, with other bisouled once. Learn to live like one again"

Really, to the dark magical world I've seen when the keeper showed me my past? It sounds awesome somehow..

"No, she isn't going", I hear the keeper say in between my thoughts. "Ava, you're a bisouled creature, with a fire demon as second soul. They don't want these, the only other ever existed got killed. They think fire is the evil in the world. I got you away there to safe you. Not to later see you walk towards your own dead".

"Come on, take her there"

"No. And that's it. She'll stay here to learn everything", that's the answer he gives before walking away.

"But...-", I try, he already closes the door. I break down to the floor and start crying worse again. "I'm nothing, does he even care about it? I don't know what I am except for a monster", I half choke on my tears. For a second I think.. should I..

"No don't.. don't hurt yourself"

I don't care about it. I concentrate and let little flames appear between my fingers and put them down on the skin on my arms. Ouchhhh it hurts, but I deserve that.. I look to the skin, it's not really bad yet.. another one..just some more..

I keep on putting flames on my arm until it starts bleeding and bleeding.. weirdly enough it doesn't burn the veins to close up again. Maybe has something to do that I ain't completely human. I feel a little light in my head.

"Uhm.. Ava are you..okay?"

Besides the fact he hears my thoughts, he probably also kind of feels how I feel. "Yes I am oka-", I want to say I'm totally okay and fine, but I start feeling dizzy. There's blood dripping on the floor and I feel that I'm losing it.

My eyes close as I feel my head fall down to the floor.

Am I awake, am I conscious..No I'm not? Where am I? It's dark here. "Ignis!!!".

"Fuck no, no, Ava.. KEEPER FAST!!! Oh I hope you can hear me even though she passed out.."

The keeper comes running up. Ava lying on the floor, blood all over her arms. Like a murder scene. "Oh my god.. what happened?", he asks.

"You can hear me, luckily..she hurt herself, I can't get contact anymore..."

"Is she?", he doesn't end his question before Ignis answers.

"Yes.. she's locked in..some sort of coma, I'm afraid, she lost too much blood, she needs medical care"

"Guys?!" I run around hitting and kicking around me, but there's only black. I need to wake up, can I wake up, am I dead?! What if I'm dead?! I'm locked in...

"This, is my fault"