Deamon within

~6~ Past accident

I notice the room stopped shaking, but I still am trembling like crazy. I'm so scared. How did I even manage to keep standing. I open my eyes which I shut tightly from all the movements. The keeper is holding me against him, if it wasn't for all the weird things that already have happened, I would have screamed at him and blamed him for being some pervert. But now I only can mumble a quiet "thank you.."

"Are you okay?", the keeper asks. "You kinda flamed up and you're shaking really badly", he has a worried look in his eyes.

"Come on Ava this isn't the worst you've had last days, pick yourself up don't be such a weak girl"

I know I'm weak, I'm stupid and a monster, I think but don't speak my mind. Knowing Ignis can hear me and this man doesn't need to know how I feel. "I'm fine", I say, forcing a fake smile on my face. Did he say flame up though? I look to my hands and see my skin did turn orange again, my veins flaming up through my skin. But it's slightly a different colour as the other time it happened. The first time it was this amazingly strong orange red colour, now it seems like..there's a little blue through it, like the blue you sometimes see in a small flame.

"Well okay, then look in front of you, because we're here", he says.

He knows I'm lying, doesn't he?

"I know Ignis can remember everything of this, but he shouldn't explain. Given his... uuhm flammable character sometimes. I thought showing you would be the best way to make you understand what happened", the keeper says.

"HEY, I could've explained just fine! I'm not THAT bad, I can be calm too! Why wouldn't I be able to explain what she did and what happened and what went wrong and how she, we destroyed our world?!"

Destroyed.. the keeper also mentioned something before about me burning down part of a world before.. "I'm sorry.. I'm such a monster", my voice is shaky just like my body still is.

"Because of this", the keeper sighs. "You hurt her, and by that you're going to hurt yourself. Ava, you're not a monster, please let me show you", his voice is so calm and kind..

"Sorry, I think I understand"

"

Okay, I will let you show me", but I won't believe I ain't a monster. I look around the place where he took me. It's some old cottage, I have never seen a place like this before, it's quite dark and everywhere I look I see weird signs like it's a language I don't know. Then I notice two people, a couple it seems. They're talking to each other.

"What if she finds out?" the man asks looking doubtful. "She won't, how would she find out.. the curse isn't even real.. they said she would kill her family when she was born, but she looks normal like all the other bisouls, no danger in her.. No signs that she even could summon a fire. We all know that for the last billions of years there only was one fire demon, and she was killed to safe all of us", the lady says.

Why does this seem so.. familiar? I keep on looking to the couple and listening to what they say. I'm not sure what they're talking about, but the keeper told me to watch. I feel him tapping on my shoulder.

"These, are your real parents", he says. "You're also in the house somewhere, but I'm not sure where at this moment. Ignis?"

"You're behind that edge on the left, underneath the stairs. You were listening even though they thought you were asleep"

"Mommy?", a small girl looking like me crawls in sight. "Why are you talking about fire.. I'm scared of fire, they taught us fire could kill us, fire is bad.. that's why they killed that lady, they told us!", the girl looks like she's about to cry.

"You were 80 here.. which is 4 years old in the age you've learned"

"Hush my baby, it's oka-", the lady, who apparently is my mom, were hugging the younger me as she started to cry. But she stopped in her sentence and backs up together with my dad. They look terrified, I can't see what's happening. "Mommy? Daddy?, the little me cries. She doesn't seem to understand what happens either.

Then I see what happens, my parents scream when my tears touch the ground and big flames grow in the house. The fire grows bigger and bigger and nothing can stop it. I hear a lot of voices outside of the house, screaming "kill the child!"

Everything starts shaking again and this time I push myself against the keeper, like he can protect me, like he is my father. We let go of the ground and I see thousands of burned places, a lot of dead creatures.

"You burned down about one third of our world in your fear, I took you away from there. Like I told you before, and put you into an human family. With your memory erased you wouldn't be dangerous there, unless.. unless something in you would remember anything before you were 360, which was nearly impossible. But it happened..", the keeper tells and he strokes my head to calm me.

When we're back in the current time, I just run away, just to fall down on my knees, before even leaving his house.

"Ava calm down"

Did I kill all the family I ever had..
"I killed them" I say half choking on my tears, while catching them on my own skin making small burns. Everything to become I won't burn down this place.

"Yes... you did", the keeper says

"And you don't hate me?!", I half scream. Waiting for an answer from both this kind man and Ignis.

"No.. I care about you"

"No, I care about you"

But I don't anymore..