Do You Hate Me? | Yuwin

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September 12, 20XX

Dear Diary,

As usual me and Yuta hung out at school again, but something unexpected happened. While we were talking, he asked if his girlfriend could hang out with us today. What? A girlfriend? I never knew he had one. I didn't want to seem rude, so I said sure, and so she did. I would see them hug and kiss everywhere we went, honestly I felt disgusted, but also heartbroken. To tell the truth, I've liked Yuta for four years now and still haven't came out to him. I knew he would reject me because he wasn't gay, he was 100% straight and I could see it. After their little "couple hangout" and me as their third wheel, I went home since Yuta said he was going to hang out with his girlfriend for the rest of the day. Great right? Welp, I'll just have to see what tomorrow has in store for me.

Sincerely,
WinWin

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I closed my journal and slid it back in to my drawer. How was I to stupid to think he was gay, he's one of the popular kids at our school, every girl likes him. And when I say every girl, I mean EVERY girl. Like when me and Yuta would be eating at lunch, girls would always come over to our table and either, give him a little of their lunch, slide over notes, ask to sit with him, or ask what he's doing later. He would always respond with, "sorry I'm hanging with my bro." And he would point to me. I appreciated how he would always put the girls last, that was until he met Heejin.

During Sophomore year, we were eating at our table as usual, we then heard people cheering and shouting. We turned around to see a girl with long black hair walk into the cafeteria, she looked gorgeous. All the students had their attention on her, taking pictures of her like she was a celebrity. She spotted Yuta and walked over to our table. "Hi." She sat next to him. "Hi." He smiled real big, I just sat there eating my sandwich. "What's your name?" She asked, twirling her hair. "Yuta, Nakamoto Yuta." He scratched the back of his nape. "I'm Heejin, Kim Heejin." She mimicked his move, they giggled about it, while I was just sitting there, sad. Not long after, there was a rumor going around the school that they were dating, and both Yuta and Heejin confirmed it. You know where that left me? Crying on the bed, eating ice cream on a Saturday night (A/N: #relatable). My family were really supportive of me and tried to calm me down and forget about it, but that would only make me even sadder. Since then, whenever I would see them together, I would simply not bother them and went on with my own group of friends. He started avoiding me more and when we would get together, he would always talk about his girlfriend. How great she is, how she's the most amazing girlfriend in the world and how they did his and that, and would just bring her up in our conversations and I was just done with that.

I changed into my pajamas and climbed into bed, daydreaming about him and how me and him will never be one. I took a long sigh, "I just wish she never came over to our table." As I drifted of to sleep.

The morning rolled around and I was woken up by the bright sun hitting my window. "Gosh, it's too early." I rose out of bed and went to take a shower. After I was done, I hit up my friend Chenle. "WinWin, you called?" He had an exciting tone. "Why do you sound so excited?" I questioned him. "Did you forget the annual science committee is today!" He gasped, I totally forgot about the science thing but what made matters even worse was that...

Yuta was my partner

The teacher had assigned partners for it, me and Yuta were the last ones to be picked and you know how excited he was to do the project with his best friend. "I must've forgotten about it." I scratch the back of my nape. "Whatever, anyways are you hanging out with Yuta today?" Chenle asked, I thought about him and I knew he would be hanging out with his other friends, "No, I'm not." "Awesome! Then you can meet us in the gym!" Chenle said. "The gym? Wait that's where Yu-" Chenle hung up the phone before I could answer. "Great." I sighed. I put my phone in my pocket, grabbed my backpack and headed to the bus stop.

When I got to the bus stop I saw my other friend, Lucas and went up to him. "Yo, what's up!" He patted my back. I looked around to not see Yuta anywhere, "Is Yuta not here?" I asked. "I guess not." Lucas responded. The bus arrived, and we all got on. Me and Lucas talked the whole ride to the point where we got separated for being to loud. We got there at a short amount of time I walked off the bus with Lucas beside me, "Hey, I'll see you later alright?" He said. "Where are you going?" I asked him. "Mr. Tuan wants me to finish my math quiz." I nodded and he disappeared into the building. "Hey, WinWin!" I look to see Yuta coming up I suspected he was alone, but his girlfriend was just behind him. She gave me a death state and sticks up the middle finger at me. Just a few days ago, one of her friends told her I was gay and liked Yuta she came up to me and accused me of it and I admitted it to her. Since then she would always stick up he middle finger and when Yutas not around, she would humiliate me in front of her friends. I glanced at her one more time and she wasn't looking anymore, just was talking to friends. "Hey, you okay?" I snapped back to reality and looked at Yuta, "I'm sorry." I left without hearing what he said.

Later, 5th period had ended and I was heading to class, but I just had to get interrupted by Heejin herself. "Hey, gay." She stood in front of me. "What now, Heejin?" She stepped closer, "You're never getting my precious Yuta you know that?" I rolled my eyes, "Don't you even think about going near him or else I'll really humiliate you in front of the whole school." She walks away laughing, but I ignored it and went to class.

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Sorry I had to end it here because it was getting to long also so many comebacks happened I don't think I'll even breath anymore, cause there just so FREAKING GOOD!!!