raven's song {chris motionless}

eleven • glowing in amber

Chris's POV

I was beaming as I walked downstairs, hand-in-hand with Raven. The guys all looked up at me and grinned. "It's nice to see you again, man," Ricky said.

I nodded and walked over to the boxes of pizza. I was starving. I devoured the piece of delicious food quickly, and grabbed another. I heard Raven giggle, and then she grabbed a piece, too.

"Chris, Korel called. We have tour in a week," Balz announced.

Josh Korel, our manager, had a thing about getting all of our information to us a bit late. I sighed and replied with, "okay."

"Aww, I'm gonna miss you," Raven pouted, looking at me. "You too, Ange," she added when she saw the mock sadness on his face.

"Just come with us," Balz suggested. "Josh said we have an extra bunk."

I smiled. "Yeah, please?"

Raven pursed her lips and looked up towards the ceiling. She always does that, when she's thinking about things. "What about my cat?"

"Bring him," Devin said. "We love cats."

"You love cats," Ryan corrected him.

"I don't want Osiris to cause any trouble."

"My girlfriend, Ryan-Ashley, she can watch him," Balz offered.

Raven shrugged. "Okay, then. How long is tour?"

"Two months, then we break for three weeks, then another two months."

"Will you guys let me get pictures of you on stage?" She asked shyly. "For my photography business?"

"Photography? No way!" I exclaim. "That's awesome, Rave!"

She giggled, which made my smile even bigger. "Thanks."

"Then it's settled, Raven's coming with us!"

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Raven was asleep in my bed, next to me. This brought back memories. How I'd stay up late and think about how much I loved her.

Love her. I'm still in love with her.

She looked almost the same as she did when we were younger, except a bit for mature. She was still tall and well proportioned, and she still had those admirable eyes. She had changed her hair over the years, and her face had become less baby-ish.

She was so pretty.

I wanted to kiss her. I wanted to hold her, to be the one to tell her how much I love her. I wanted to tell her about my feelings her, and how they haven't changed.

I would never be able to bring myself too.

I grabbed a pen and paper and began to write. This song would probably never be released, or at least not anytime soon.

In darkness, you're all around me
I know our future, I feel your body

What if I told you that I planned this?
What if I want to lose control?
What if I take the blame, become the drug, dissolve as you swallow?

Covered in your silhouette
Elated for the bitter end
Don't let the shame from our lips

Glowing in amber, burn in sin

Against the wall, we fall from grace
The pain we love is taking shape
The burning lust, to touch the flame
Over and over again

We've played this role a thousand times
The same old script, just different lies
You disappear without a trace
Concealing the crimes on your face

Leave all the pleasure, all you are is pain
And you deserve every second of your suffering
But yet I can't stop, crawling to your doorstep
Every time you beckon
Self destructing, trusting nothing, silence!

You burn like a ciggerate
I took my time to suck you in
So take me out of my head
And spread your ashes on my skin

Against the wall, we fall from grace
The pain we love is taking shape
The burning lust, to touch the flame
Over and over again

We've played this role a thousand times
The same old script, just different lies
You disappear without a trace
Concealing the crimes on your face

FALL!

Your skin like winter
I felt you shiver
I heard you whisper but the pills worked quicker
I watched you wither
I am the killer!

Against the wall, we fall from grace
The pain we love is taking shape
The burning lust, to touch the flame
Over and over again

I stopped writing there. I didn't know how to continue. I sighed, tossed my book under the bed, and closed my eyes.

I don't know if all of the lyrics I wrote down are correct. Sorry if they aren't. Please politely correct my mistakes.
     - salem ♡

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