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Chapter Thirty Five ~ The Conflicts in My Head

Chapter Thirty Five ~ The Conflicts in My Head

" Me: Oh okay, thanks for calling.

I didn't know.. he must be drinking away because of how hurt he is. My gosh.. Sehun I'm so sorry.. I really "

...Continued~~~

I rushed to Sehun and tried carried him to the car, but there was a problem. I'm not strong enough to carry Sehun all by myself.

Me: Sehun! Get a hold of yourself! Why didn't you drink so much anyways?!
I knew why he drank so much, but I asked anyways, to hear him say he loves me, to hear him say that he's jealous of JaeHyuk.. I know it's a little too much of me.. I know it's wrong

Sehun: Why do you even come? You have JaeHyuk!! I don't need you!
Surprisingly, he didn't say that it was because of me, surprisingly he wants to push me away.

Me: Sehun.. Be careful..

Sehun: does it look like I need you?! I'm fine without you! Do you even know who was there for you all this time?

Me: i know you're always there for me.. That's why I want to be there for you too

Sehun: no, you're there for JaeHyuk.. Even if he's hurt you. You said it was fair because you forgave me too.. What did I do wrong to you?! You gave yourself a chance to be with me.. Is that really fair? And you don't have to go that far! It's all about JaeHyuk? You always believe in everything when someone says something! But when I'm talking to you, it takes so much more for you to believe me! It's not that I don't trust JaeHyuk, it's that you're giving him so much attention as if he's just as important as me.. It hurts.. I'm not always that tough guy you always thought of..

Me: I'm sorry Sehun... I really am.. I didn't mean it. I didn't realize how much pain you were going through..

Sehun: would you be hurt if I spent more time with Jenny and not you?

Me: yes! That's my point, I know how you feel..

Sehun: do you?

Me: yes Sehun! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry I can't be that perfect girl you dreamed of or that girl you always saw me as..

Sehun: don't be sorry..

Sehun falls asleep on me.. How can I ever carry him to the car!! Why did I even park it that far! This is going to be a long night.. Someone taps me, with their ice cold hands, I turn around to see JaeHyuk glaring at me.

JaeHyuk: This is very dangerous, a girl like you... Out at night like this? With Sehun drunk? Next time be more careful.. I'm not always around.

Me: JaeHyuk..

JaeHyuk: it's okay, I'll pretend I didn't hear what you two said. I know it's a little of my fault. Trust me, give Sehun more time. Spend more time with him.

Me: I know

JaeHyuk: I still can't believe you're wearing a dress at this time.. Don't you know it's dangerous?! And you're a star, many people could take bad pictures and talk bad.. Have you forgotten you're a celebrity?

Me: I don't see it as a big deal..

JaeHyuk: Sehun does, I do..

Me: okay okay.. I'm only wearing a dress because I had to rush down here to help Sehun.

JaeHyuk: do you see how much you care for him to rush out like this? Be more nice to Sehun, don't forget he's your boyfriend. I mean soon to be husband

JaeHyuk winks at me and I blush. I push him lightly.
Me: don't joke..

JaeHyuk helped me carry Sehun to the car. He stayed in the car till Sehun and I got home safely. From my house, he walked home alone.