to the one i lost
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saturday 23:59
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you were my rock
through the hardest years of my nineteen years of life
and i knew truly knew the struggles you had
behind closed doors and beneath your skin
i know you never wanted me to worry
but i knew
deep down i knew that you were not getting better
even though i so wish you did
cause you are no longer here
you know i was so excited to see you this weekend?
i was going to buy you tea
down the street from a new place in town
i am still going to go, when i come home
but this time it is time to say goodbye,
not hello
is it nice up there in heaven?
are you happy? pain free? enjoying the warmth life gave you
you always had a warmth about you
always so optimistic, even with the worst hand
you know i am going to miss you
a lot, so much it stings
it is like something left me
when you left this earth
what do i do now?
how do i go on without here?
what do i look forward to?
i wanted you in my life forever
but i guess four years was enough
i will take four over none
thank you for teaching me about the good things in life
for showing a light i did not know i had
for not making feel worthless, even though someday that's all i felt
thank you for not belittling me, and not thinking my belief was not to lax or wrong
you always prayed for me, and you are the only one i truly believed in
you are the only one that made me want to have a better faith in God
and now you are gone
and i am here, living and breathing
even though i may not feel like it
i will keep going
i will make you proud
so please do not worry about me up there
i will be okay, this is just a down day
and these tears will fade
and the sadness will drift away like a dream
but the ache of missing you will not disappear
I will just tell everyone about the good times
how you would a grandmother figure to me
not the sickly you
you do not want to be remembered by that
so i will make sure your legacy is happy
and bright
YOU ARE READING
Final Tear
PoetryI'm shedding my final tears. No more. I'm tired of you being the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before falling asleep. I'm ready to move on to new beginnings: and my first new beginning will be without you...
