given up
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thursday 16:55
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have you ever felt like given up on life?
not ending it; just being done with it
i am tired of living this miserable life
where all i want is to be happy
but i just can't seem to get it
i just want my old life back; my good life
where my friends were still my friends
where my person was still alive
where i was happy
i am tired of being depressed
of having anxiety
of living in a dorm that is straight from hell
of my fear of having to leave the school i love
of having to deal with grief 8 hours from home
of dealing with the fact that i am not okay
and i have not been for a while
i feel like all i have done is numb myself from the pain
all the heartache, the grief, the loneliness
cause i feel all alone
i feel like no one gets it
so i have just put on a mask; even in front of my therapist
because this is the only way i know how to
but i am tired of it
i am tired of pretending I'm okay
i am tired of smiling
I am tired of people who are not really my friends
i am tired of people taking advantage of me because i let them
i am tired of not being myself
i once was so confident and i want that back but i do not know how
so how do i take that step
YOU ARE READING
Final Tear
PoetryI'm shedding my final tears. No more. I'm tired of you being the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before falling asleep. I'm ready to move on to new beginnings: and my first new beginning will be without you...
