sometimes... i am sorry
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sunday 15:37
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this is too much
sometimes the tension is just too much
and it makes me feel unwelcome in my own home
to where i hide out in a coffee shop
almost everyday
because the pressure is too much....
i am sorry
this is too much
the anxiety that's eating me alive
causing me to curl inside myself wondering what i did wrong
what i can do to fix it
but sometimes it gets too much....
i am sorry
this is too much
the depression that is knocking on my back door
with the anxiety already home
do you know how it feels to be drowning on land?
to feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders and it is just not enough?
because sometimes it gets too much...
i am sorry
this is too much
the grieve that cannot spill from my mouth
because it has been a month and i should be fine
i should just live my life like i did not lose someone important to me
because this situation is more important
and you know sometimes i would just like to cry....
i am sorry
this is too much
when i have to apologize for every feeling i have
and every decision i make because it does not benefit the whole
just the part; me
but you know sometimes i just want to be selfish
.... i am sorry
i am sorry i want to cry because someone i lost is not coming back
i am sorry i cannot just get over my anxiety because it sadly lives with me
i am sorry i cannot do something that benefits you cause it hurts me
i am sorry that my depression and anxiety may be a bother
i am sorry i am not putting you first; but i am tired of putting me last
YOU ARE READING
Final Tear
PoetryI'm shedding my final tears. No more. I'm tired of you being the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing I think about before falling asleep. I'm ready to move on to new beginnings: and my first new beginning will be without you...
