Denial and Acceptance

Love? (13)

"Yuri! Wait up" Anna called behind But I wasn't listening, because of my silly promise to Victor I hadn't been skating in about a week, the sounds of skates on the ice was like music to my ears. It's not often I get to skate for fun and only fun, I thought as I circled the ring with the crowd, it's such a simple motion, I could let my mind wander, the first thing that came to mind, when I got back to Russia, After the hot springs on ice

'Yuri? your back, why did you leave before they finished the show?' Mila asked

'Just shut up already,' I said pushing past her 'I don't want to talk about it.'

'Yuri? are you crying.'

I shook this memory out of my head; I don't want to think about weakness right now, another one took its place

'I can't believe that jerk beat me!' I Screamed kicking a Trashcan as we passed by.

'Hey it's your first Prix cup in the senior league, be happy you won second.' Mila stated

'No! I'm better than J-Jerk I won't accept a defeat to him! First I lose to that Pig Now J Jerk this isn't fair!'

I feel myself skate faster in anger; this won't do either why can't I find something happy to think about, after all, I've been in a good mood for a few days now

'And Yuuri Katsuki has landed a Quad Sal for his first time, isn't that great folks.'

no

'Better luck next time Yuri-chan' I hear JJ say with his gold medal

no!

'I need you to call someone...I think I'm getting worse.' Dedushka said weakly

no!

'that's not being Weak! That's being human. Yuri look at your self you're in tears over something as simple as being told you can't go to practice. That's not normal; you're unstable, you know it, I know it, we all know it.' Yuuri says

'UNSTABLE! that's just a nice way of saying weak!' I cried out

I stopped Dead in My tracks and screamed "NO!" when I realized that was out loud I Looked around, everyone was staring, Including Anna

"Hey Yuri are you alright, your-" Anna started I cut her off when I realized had begun crying

"No- I mean Yes, don't worry about it.." I said and skated off, I hate this isn't the place to be weak, this is a skating rink, someone is bound to recognize me, and I've already made a scene to

"Hey, that's Yuri Plisetsky!" I hear a person say

"Isn't he taking the year off ice skating why is he here?" Another said

"Jeez, what was with the yelling earlier."

"is he... Crying?"

I stopped and turned around; I waited for Anna to catch up

"I'm sorry Anna, but I want to go home.. this... is bringing back bad memories... as much as it pains me to admit that old man was right."

"Oh ok... Sorry, I brought you here, I wasn't thinking, I've heard about what happened too. Do you want to talk."

"I don't want your Sympathy; I hate Sympathy... Almost as I hate JJ."

"Ok... I understand.."

Neither of us spoke during the 20 minutes ride to drop me off. When we got to my house, Beka was waiting outside

"Have you just been waiting out here the whole time?"

"Is that ok?"

"Well yea.."