Just another drop in the ocean

Am i dying?

( Mya's pov)

I never thought that I would die anytime soon... Ever since dr.fell told me damon has had me on lockdown but I actually get to leave the house today because it's kamies funeral I look up at the ceiling that I've been looking at for days I hear the door creeks so I look over and see damon "what damon" I say annoyed "your dying and that's how your gonna talk to me?!" he asks getting angry "my best friend died Damon! I'm dying!" I say as tears start to form "I'm sorry I've just been upset" he says as he looks down "I'm gonna be fine Damon" I say as I get up from the bed and hug him" he strokes my hair "I love you mya" he says before kissing me gently I pull away from him and strip from my clothes I feel Damon's eyes staring at me "no no mr. Salvatore" I say while turning back and putting black bra and panties to match just as I was about to pull my dress up I feel Damon's hand on my back stopping me from zipping my dress I feel him kiss my shoulder I turn around "Damon" I say before his lips smash onto mine I give up and let him go he wraps my legs around his waist and backs up until he's sitting on the bed with me straddling him I kiss him while he pulls my dress off I pull of his shirt and then his jeans I know it's not right but it's getting my mind off of Kamie I feel Damon's boner so I slowly slide down until he is inside of me I start going slow but pick up the pace with Damon's hands on my back supporting me he kisses my neck making me moan before he flips us over so he's on top I grab his back and leave marks but they heal so there is only blood (20 minuets later)
I finally get my dress on after Damon attempts to get me back in bed I zip it up and put on my heels to match before pinning some of my hair back not even bothering to put on making being ill cry and it will come off anyways I pull Damon out of the house and we drive to the woods where we are having the funeral we walk up to the coffin next to a tree stump I see caroline and Madie and Elena crying (they had all met kamie and grew close to her) I walk up and grab Madies hand and we cry I see Jeremy standing next to the stump with a bell he puts down a picture of all of us with Kamie on her birthday I have to go up first I walk up there and put down kamies half of our best friend necklace that she was wearing when she died I set it down before crying. I remember the day I gave her that necklace she was so happy so so alive and now she's dead I think while tears stream freely I walk back to damon and grab his hand Madie goes up and puts down a picture of them when they were little "it was her cousin" I say as my knees go weak but damon helps me I look at him thankfully before I look at the coffin and see my dead friend in there lying lifelessly I hear a branch break so I turn around and I see Austin my best friend and kamies boyfriend walking up to us he has roses in his hand I run to him and hug him "I'm so sorry Austin" I say before kissing his cheek "you lost her too" he says as he walks over to the group with us he puts the roses down on the stump and looks at the coffin with tears falling off his face "she was so young" he says while breaking down he walks between me and Madie then Jeremy speaks "she's here with all of you right now she will always be here" he says as he walks towards me "mya I know you think that you can't live or be happy because of all this bad stuff happening but you can I know I never got to meet damon but let me tell you this he's always gonna protect you mya he won't let anything happen to you I know that I know that you think your dying but your not. go out and live mya you deserve it I love you" he says and I know it's from Kamie he walks to Austin "Austin I loved you so much that when I died I wanted my last thought to be of you and it was but just because I died don't think you can't move on. I want you to move on.. you gave me forever in a number of days and I'm thankful for that I'll always love you" Jeremy says and Austin knows it's from Kamie and then it's to madie "I saw you decorate the dorm like your life depended on it. we weren't gonna tell Mya I was coming because we wanted to surprise her but then the accident happened I'm so sorry madie... I know you wanted me to have more days to live but I wouldn't have lived my life any differently If I got to do it over again I love you" and then Jeremy says that Kamie is trying to find peace and that she will always be watching over us we are all crying and holding hands.
( 2 days later) I called damon and stefan to the woods they both get there "whats going on?" stefan asks broodingly "I wanted to ask you both here because I want to attend my own funeral" I say while looking down "damon can you say my eulogy" I say with a small smile he walks in front of me "my Mya my love if I could have given you more days than you had I would have gave you forever I fell in love with her the way you fall asleep slowly and then all at once I know that I couldn't give her everything she wanted in life but I sure tried I gave her a love that consumed her passion adventure and even a little danger thank you for our little infinity Mya I will continue on until the day I die I love you so much so much I wish I could have told you more than I did" he says while tears stream down his face I look at him while tears stream down my face also and I run to him and hug him "I'm still here baby" I whisper in his ear I look at stefan and smile "you can say what you wanted to say stefan" I say while pulling away from damon and wiping his tears "mya we have been through so much together I don't even know what I'm supposed to say except for you deserved way more days than you got you were the love of my life but also my brothers I understand your choices and I'll never be mad at you for what you chose i except it I just want you to know that damon will never stop loving you. he is your one true love he gave you passion and adventure in a number of days I wish that I could have done something to bring you back but I couldn't I love you mya" he says a tear falls from his face I hug him and kiss his cheek "thank you" my knees suddenly go weak and I fall and my bones start to break "ahhhhh" I scream in pain I hear damon calling my name but I can't speak I feel myself slipping I grab Damon's hand before I feel myself slip even more and before I know it I feel different I open my eyes and see my body but I'm not in it I see damon crying over my body and stefan hitting a tree with tears falling "in so sorry"