Before I say Goodbye

The way you look at me

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It's the way you look at me,
It made me look at you twice.
I have traveled this road longer than you.
the times you missed,
and the times you didn't look back;
so what makes you look at me now?
is it the dress i am wearing is different from before?
or the crowd i have with me?
something changed.
and it's the change that made you look at me.
I wish you had looked at me sooner,
when i could also had looked at you and smile.
now all is surrounded by the gloomy rain
falling on its pace,
and i can't think of anything, any more.
all is unfamiliar to me, except you.
was it my last wish to see you?
a last wish for you to look at me?
but, its sadder now.
cause there is a sympathy is your eyes,
its not the way i wanted you to look at me.

still remembering the days,
when i fight for you gaze.
the touch which remains unknown,
With a longing phase.
Where the sun never dims;
I dreamt of us together until,
The spell broke and i was awake.

The dream i had of us,
Was as high school sweethearts;
Racing to your arms and
Staying there forever.
Having small fights,
with you making up to me right;
Growing old with white hair,
GrandChildren playing surrounding us;
& Hand in hand with you i just stayed.

But non of it will come true again,
As i wait for you every day
Not a day goes by,
without your thoughts in my mind.
Wishing it all had been true,
If i had courage and spoke to you;
How i can let you go ahead?
Or move on from your thoughts in my head.
Its a agony;
And i am in despair.
Colours fading away,
Without you in my life today.

All i wanted was for you to look at me,
The way i looked at you from far away.
An un-spoken & un-heard love story;
Which could have been epic one day.
Non of it matters or declare;
With you in someone else arms today,
And me in another man's embrace.
Leaving a confession of an undying love here,
Not a day goes by as time stays frozen;
On the day you looked my way,
& my mistake, of letting you get away...
leaving everything behind,
no more regrets or wishes in mind,
lying on this box, with a destination unknown
I thank you for looking at me for the last time.
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