Bad thoughts

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I wish you well
I wish you the best
I am happy for you
Congratulations and all the rest

Still why  I wonder,
I don't know why that is...
I wanna scream bad things
I hope you fall
Say you suck
I am just jealous a little.

Why is it not me?
Why i am not happy?
Why god picks on me?
The Random things in my head.

I am glad you wealthy
I am happy you succeed
I am proud of what you did,
And the rest I don't mean.

Still i am sad
Also i am angry
Why i am not satisfied
Why i curse back?
I don't like myself
Sometimes the way i feel

Envy, jealously
Greed & addiction.
Resulting in
Back stab or back bitching.

Still i try to be better
Than the bad thoughts , in my head.
Never stop believing in yourself
As the wheel of fortune keeps turning always.

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