I Love You And I Hate It (Tony Stark X Reader)

part 20: I'll do it

Your pov.

"No no please y/n dont" nat says tears in her eyes. "Nat look at me" she looks up. "Its okay don't worry about me" I walk to the cliff. And I jump. I free fall and my life flashes before me from when I first met tony and the avengers. When I had my first battle,when I first met Peter,when I gave birth to my beautiful baby girl...wait i stopped I look up to see clint holding his bow. He used his grappling hook arrow on me. "Clint let me go!" "No y/n I wont let you die!" He pulls me up and nat jumps off and so does clint. I look over the edge to see them hanging from a rock. This is my chance I jump off and fall past them but clint catches me again. "Clint its okay just let me go!" "No y/n!" Nat lets go of his hand. "NO NAT!" I scream and she falls blood splashes on the ground clint pulls me up. We have tears and our eyes. I wake up in a pool of water mine and Clint's hands connected with a glowing orange stone in the middle. I start to cry. We get up and start our time machines. We land in the complex everyone else is here too. "Did...did we do it?" Scott asks. "Yeah. Yeah we did" Tony says excitedly I fall to my knees. "Y/n!" Tony shouts worriedly. "What's wrong baby?" "Guys Where's nat?" Bruce asks. I cry into Tony's chest. He hugs me tightly. "No...no no no" bruce mutters. He falls and smashes his hand onto the machine. We walk outside and sit on the dock tears streaming down our faces. "Why are we mopping we can get her back with the stones" thor starts. "No she can't" clint says. "Look this is space we're dealing with I'm pretty sure that..." "I know this is out of my realm of expertise but she can't come back at least that's what the red floating guy had to say so of you have any problems go tall to him. Grab your hammer and you go and you talk to him!" Clint shouts. "It should have been me" I say. "What?" They all ask. "I've lived my life and I had no regrets but I know nat had so many. She could have fixed them could have lived but no. She had to jump off that god damn cliff to save everyone. I would have done it but she did and look at where we are sat on the dock crying at least if I did it you could all carry on working" "don't make dare say that" tony says. "What?" "Dont you dare say we could just carry on because if you died I wouldn't carry on I wouldn't I'd go home to Morgan" "I'd go back to Brooklyn" steve says. "I'd go back to india" bruce says. "I'd go back to japan" Clint says. "I'd go back to cassie" scott says. "And I'd go back to new asgard" thor says. "We cannot do this without you here" "well...then let's go kick some ass" I say weakly getting up. "What are you waiting for!" They all follow and we start on the new gauntlet. Me and tony start putting it together. "Did you jump?" He asks. "What?" "Did you jump off of the cliff at vormir" I sigh. "Yes tony I did" "why?" "Because I didn't want them to do it I'm fulfilled tony. I've had an absolutely amazing life with a wonderful however eccentric husband and a beautiful baby girl. I've got a great house and met marvellous however crazy people and had a fun life full of adventure but those two. Have had it rough. I just wanted her to live her life just as full if not more full than me" he smiles. "Honey she did it because she knows that you want to see him again she knows you couldn't die without seeing peter again" I smile. It's true that would be my. One and only regret. Never seeing peter again. If the same situation had come up 10 years ago then I would have so many more regrets like never finding Bruce or never making up with steve and never having kids or getting married to Tony. "It doesn't mean I won't miss her any less" I say. "It's okay she can't suffer any more" "tony?" "Yeah baby?" "I love you so much" "I love you more y/n" we work on the gauntlet and soon it's nearly done. We just need the stones we carefully put them in and..."boo!" Rocket shouts he laughs. Tony gets up and I grab his shoulder. We have it ready. We bring it out to everyone. "Okay we have it but the question is who's going to snap their frickin fingers?" Rocket asks. "I'll do it" thor says hurriedly. "Woah woah buddy shouldn't we discuss this?" I ask. "Y/n do you know what's coursing through my veins right now?" "Cheese wiz?" Me and rhodey ask. "No lightning" "thor this thing has enough energy to light up a continent and I don't think you're in great condition to be doing this" tony says. "No no no...please let me do it" "I'll do it" Bruce says. "What?" I ask. "The radiation this gives off is mostly gamma. It's like I was made for this" he starts to put it on. "Friday do me a favour and activate protocol eight" tony says making a shield appear from his suit. I put my suit on but tony grabs my waist and pulls me behind the sheild anyway. "Yes, boss" the facility starts to go into lockdown. "Everybody comes home" bruce says. The gauntlet expands to his hand size and he grunts in pain. "Take it off. Take it off!" Thor shouts. "No, wait. Bruce, are you okay?" Steve asks. Bruce drops to his knees. "Come on! Talk to us banner!" I shout. "I'm okay. I'm okay" he answers. Thor gives a double thumbs up and moves back. Bruce screams fighting the pain given to him courtesy of the infinity stones. He snaps his fingers and he faints. Clint kicks the gauntlet away. "Bruce!" Steve rushes over to him. "Don't move him" Tony says. "Did it work?" Bruce asks holding Steve's arm. "Worth a shot. It's over. It's okay" thor says. Scott walks over to the window. I hear a phone ring. It's Clint's. "Honey. Honey" he says smiling. His wife. Scott smiles brightly. "Guys. I think it worked" Bruce opens his eyes and above us is a huge ship that starts shooting missiles. My eyes widen. "Oh my god" I say and everything goes black. I wake up with everything are me demolished. I see tony. "Tony!" I shout. "Y/n! Oh thank god" "where is everyone where...where are the stones?" I ask worriedly. "Somewhere under all of this" he answers. We walk around and find Steve unconscious. "Come on, buddy. Wake up" tony says he wakes up. "That's our man" I say handing him his sheild. "Lose this again and I'm giving it to Morgan to take sledging" I say and steve chuckles. I turn and see thir stood out looking at the horizon or so I though. As I wall over I see he is ready looking at thanos. Just sitting.Waiting. "What's he been doing?" I ask. "Absolutely nothing" he says. "Where are the stones?" Steve asks. "Somewhere under all this. All I know is he doesn't have them" tony says. "So we'll keep it that way" I say and steve nods. "You know it's a trap, right?" Thor asks. "Yeah" I say. "But I don't much care" tony finishes. "Good. Just as long we are all in agreement" he stretches out both hands and stormbreaker and mjolnir fly into them his casual clothes transform into armour. "Let's kill him properly this time" he says. We walk down to confront him. "You could not live with your own failure. And where did that bring you? Back to me. I thought by eliminating half of life, the other half would thrive. But you’ve shown me that’s impossible. And as long as there are those that remember what was, there will always be those that are unable to accept what can be. They will resist" thanos says. "Yep. We're all kinds of stubborn" me and tony say. "I'm thankful. Because now, I know what I must do" he stands up. "I will shred this universe down to its last atom" he puts on his helmet"And then...With the stones you've collected for me, create a new one. Teeming with life, but knows not what it has lost but only what it has been given" thor lights himself up."A grateful universe" "born out of blood" I say. "Yes. However they wont know that. Because you won't be here to tell them"